zatix tagged me to just type the first thing that comes up when i read these:
1. Yourself: dreamer
2. Your partner: sweetness
3. Your hair: curly
4. Your mother: stern
5. Your father: dentist
6. Your favorite item: bag
7. Your dream last night: money
8. Your favorite drink: plain
9. Your dream car: vintage
10. The room you are in: cold
11. Your ex: past
12. Your fear: unloved
13. What you want to be in 10 years: successful
14. Who you hung out with last night: cat
15. What you're not: backstabber
16. Muffins: cute
17: One of your wish list items: oxford heels
18: Time: precious
19. The last thing you did: stalking
20. What you are wearing: yellow
21. Your favorite weather: windy
22. Your favorite book: mysteries
23. The last thing you ate: bread
24. Your life: unsatisfied
25. Your mood: swing
26. Your best friend: priceless
27. What you're thinking about right now: john.j
28. Your car: dusty
29. What you are doing at the moment: this
30. Your summer: sandy
31. Your relationship status: swinger
32. What is on your TV: aerial
33. What is the weather like: hot
34. When was the last time you laughed: weekend
so i'm going to add another question.
35. Cats: lovable
now, these people should do this and at the end of the survey, you have to add a new question of yours.
xumb
fa alif ya zai
robot asmara
Selasa, April 29
Isnin, April 28
jangan kau bimbang sayang, di mana ku berada, dengan siapa ku bersama, jangan bimbang ku tetap kau yang punya
ku juga bimbang sayang, di mana kau berada, dengan siapa kau bersama.
jangan lupa kau tetap ku yang punya.
jangan lupa kau tetap ku yang punya.
what may come in may
layang-layang itu kita yang punyacuaca yang tenang di bulan april tak mungkin akan tenang lagi di bulan mei. where anything 'may' happens. maybe. mungkin. dan tidak semua prediction akan betul-betul terjadi. unless you strongly believe in it.
the prettiest people do the ugliest things
there's something about kanye west. i like his songs, what it's all about.
All Falls Down- KANYE WEST (feat. Syleena Johnson)
[Chorus - 4x]
Oh when it all, it all falls down
I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, she's so self conscious
She has no idea what she's doing in college
That major that she majored in don't make no money
But she won't drop out, her parents will look at her funny
Now, tell me that ain't insecurrre
The concept of school seems so securrre
Sophmore three yearrrs aint picked a careerrr
She like fuck it, I'll just stay down herre and do hair
Cause that's enough money to buy her a few pairs of new Airs
Cause her baby daddy don't really care
She's so precious with the peer pressure
Couldn't afford a car so she named her daughter Alexus (a Lexus)
She had hair so long that it looked like weave
Then she cut it all off now she look like Eve
And she be dealing with some issues that you can't believe
Single black female addicted to retail and well
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, I'm so self conscious
That's why you always see me with at least one of my watches
Rollies and Pasha's done drove me crazy
I can't even pronounce nothing, pass that versace!
Then I spent 400 bucks on this
Just to be like nigga you ain't up on this!
And I can't even go to the grocery store
Without some ones thats clean and a shirt with a team
It seems we living the american dream
But the people highest up got the lowest self esteem
The prettiest people do the ugliest things
For the road to riches and diamond rings
We shine because they hate us, floss cause they degrade us
We trying to buy back our 40 acres
And for that paper, look how low we a'stoop
Even if you in a Benz, you still a nigga in a coop/coupe
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
[Verse - Kanye West]
I say fuck the police, thats how I treat em
We buy our way out of jail, but we can't buy freedom
We'll buy a lot of clothes when we don't really need em
Things we buy to cover up what's inside
Cause they make us hate ourself and love they wealth
That's why shortys hollering "where the ballas' at?"
Drug dealer buy Jordans, crackhead buy crack
And a white man get paid off of all of that
But I ain't even gon act holier than thou
Cause fuck it, I went to Jacob with 25 thou
Before I had a house and I'd do it again
Cause I wanna be on 106 and Park pushing a Benz
I wanna act ballerific like it's all terrific
I got a couple past due bills, I won't get specific
I got a problem with spending before I get it
We all self conscious I'm just the first to admit it
owh. and also his taste in fashion plus he's a friend of pharrell.
All Falls Down- KANYE WEST (feat. Syleena Johnson)
[Chorus - 4x]
Oh when it all, it all falls down
I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, she's so self conscious
She has no idea what she's doing in college
That major that she majored in don't make no money
But she won't drop out, her parents will look at her funny
Now, tell me that ain't insecurrre
The concept of school seems so securrre
Sophmore three yearrrs aint picked a careerrr
She like fuck it, I'll just stay down herre and do hair
Cause that's enough money to buy her a few pairs of new Airs
Cause her baby daddy don't really care
She's so precious with the peer pressure
Couldn't afford a car so she named her daughter Alexus (a Lexus)
She had hair so long that it looked like weave
Then she cut it all off now she look like Eve
And she be dealing with some issues that you can't believe
Single black female addicted to retail and well
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, I'm so self conscious
That's why you always see me with at least one of my watches
Rollies and Pasha's done drove me crazy
I can't even pronounce nothing, pass that versace!
Then I spent 400 bucks on this
Just to be like nigga you ain't up on this!
And I can't even go to the grocery store
Without some ones thats clean and a shirt with a team
It seems we living the american dream
But the people highest up got the lowest self esteem
The prettiest people do the ugliest things
For the road to riches and diamond rings
We shine because they hate us, floss cause they degrade us
We trying to buy back our 40 acres
And for that paper, look how low we a'stoop
Even if you in a Benz, you still a nigga in a coop/coupe
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
[Verse - Kanye West]
I say fuck the police, thats how I treat em
We buy our way out of jail, but we can't buy freedom
We'll buy a lot of clothes when we don't really need em
Things we buy to cover up what's inside
Cause they make us hate ourself and love they wealth
That's why shortys hollering "where the ballas' at?"
Drug dealer buy Jordans, crackhead buy crack
And a white man get paid off of all of that
But I ain't even gon act holier than thou
Cause fuck it, I went to Jacob with 25 thou
Before I had a house and I'd do it again
Cause I wanna be on 106 and Park pushing a Benz
I wanna act ballerific like it's all terrific
I got a couple past due bills, I won't get specific
I got a problem with spending before I get it
We all self conscious I'm just the first to admit it
owh. and also his taste in fashion plus he's a friend of pharrell.Khamis, April 24
lesson learnt
i've just learned that i'm bad at designing anything to do with hip hop culture. i was so stressed out yesterday thinking about the right layout for the scam pervert design asked from me. "please produce a scam of the current flier that suits the club's atmosphere. imagine zouk's velvet underground only a wee bit smaller." and the hip hop theme night was ol' skool vs nu' skool. pening kepala aku.
i've learned that producing 5 different flier design in 5 hours time boleh buat kau monyok, bermuka masam, stressed dan hampir mati akal. sampai aku macam hampir hilang selera untuk design anything in the future.
i've also learned that this durjana city is not getting smaller but ALREADY making us crammed up and harder to breathe. because yesterday, i've just learned that the girl whom i knew was bad news in the first place, now currently dating ex-'heart, is also currently working at that design firm. yeah. she called me up yesterday.
bestnya hidup aku. i bet you want to trade places with me, right?
i've learned that producing 5 different flier design in 5 hours time boleh buat kau monyok, bermuka masam, stressed dan hampir mati akal. sampai aku macam hampir hilang selera untuk design anything in the future.
i've also learned that this durjana city is not getting smaller but ALREADY making us crammed up and harder to breathe. because yesterday, i've just learned that the girl whom i knew was bad news in the first place, now currently dating ex-'heart, is also currently working at that design firm. yeah. she called me up yesterday.
bestnya hidup aku. i bet you want to trade places with me, right?
Isnin, April 21
vulgar dia yang seni
as i was stepping down from palate palette's spiral stairs last wednesday night, raymond who called up that afternoon was standing exactly in front of me, chatting with another dj friend. since i was to come to his place the next day, i forced myself to say hi. when i told him my name he said: "owh yeah. i'm supposed to meet a girl named senandung k tomorrow night." dalam hati aku dah menyumpah, gila lagging dia ni, didn't he catch my name? which actually he was just kidding around. okay. doesn't matter lah. tapi sekarang, right at this very moment, aku pelik macam mana anne boleh ada crush yang begitu mendalam dengan raymond. pasal sekarang, i don't feel geli-geli anymore. you know sometimes things are better left the way they are. macam itu lah raymond. maybe he'll look pretty delicious behind the dj counter, doing his thing. tapi dua malam bersamanya sudah cukup buat aku kerap bermuka macam ini: -___-
betul. i'm a very impatient person and for me to be dealing with somebody who talks at least 3seconds per word, pengsan aku dibuatnya. maybe he's just pretty like that, as an art you can just watch but not deal with. i produced two different designs with two colours each. when i opened the file on the graphic designing software, he wanted the sampah-sampah yang di tepi fliers aku buat.
seperti yang telah aku katakan dalam entri sebelum ini, mungkin ada sesuatu yang dia nampak unik tentang sampah-sampah itu pasal he was high on grass. or maybe that's the vulgar part he wanted. haih. in a positive way, at least in the future i know how to handle artistic clients like him because i'm quite a junior designer myself. hingusan, orang tua-tua kata. still learning to stand with my two feet in this durjana city. he's a superstar dj and a very valuable asset to me too. pasal siang tadi pervert design called up asking for a draft for one of their themed nights. well, if my design flow goes with their other fliers. we'll see.
betul. i'm a very impatient person and for me to be dealing with somebody who talks at least 3seconds per word, pengsan aku dibuatnya. maybe he's just pretty like that, as an art you can just watch but not deal with. i produced two different designs with two colours each. when i opened the file on the graphic designing software, he wanted the sampah-sampah yang di tepi fliers aku buat.
seperti yang telah aku katakan dalam entri sebelum ini, mungkin ada sesuatu yang dia nampak unik tentang sampah-sampah itu pasal he was high on grass. or maybe that's the vulgar part he wanted. haih. in a positive way, at least in the future i know how to handle artistic clients like him because i'm quite a junior designer myself. hingusan, orang tua-tua kata. still learning to stand with my two feet in this durjana city. he's a superstar dj and a very valuable asset to me too. pasal siang tadi pervert design called up asking for a draft for one of their themed nights. well, if my design flow goes with their other fliers. we'll see.
dan yang berdiri berhampiran, terlihat akan titisan air matanya yang jatuh satu-persatu ke atas dada yang kini kosong. ditinggalkan.
Passersby were looking at her, as if they could erase it.
siang tadi, waktu matahari tegak tergantung di atas kepala, matanya silau.
lalu dia dilanggar lori yang besar. lori yang membawa konkrit basah.
jasadnya terkulai hancur-berkecai. rohaninya merintih, cuba mengejar.
kenapa tidak dibekukan saja dirinya dalam konkrit yang sedang berputar itu?
siang tadi, waktu matahari tegak tergantung di atas kepala, matanya silau.
lalu dia dilanggar lori yang besar. lori yang membawa konkrit basah.
jasadnya terkulai hancur-berkecai. rohaninya merintih, cuba mengejar.
kenapa tidak dibekukan saja dirinya dalam konkrit yang sedang berputar itu?
Rabu, April 16
transportation impian
piaggio vespa scooter with sidecarwhen we were young, vibrant and irresponsible, anne and i like to sit at the mamak stall on weekends and stare at people's asses. no kidding. our guy friends were always annoyed at us looking at their asses and compared them with each other's. kami macam ada sesungut pengesan, dari jauh mampu detect kehadiran asses yang hot. owh. our favourites: abang-abang skinhead yang pakai seluar ketat-seketat-ketatnya yang jalan ramai-ramai depan kami. uhuh. uhuh. bukan yang nowadays kinda skinny jeans. sekarang those skinny jeans comes with skinny ass. no fun. where to grab? no where. mendengar deruan enjin motor vespa mereka lagi membuatkan kami teruja. to date a hot skinhead guy with vespa is our everyday dream. nah! sekarang, kalau aku ada duit yang bertimbun dan boleh handle maintenance, aku mahu vespa yang tertera di atas itu. bronze like that. perfect.
1968 mustang fastbacksports car perlu warna merah. baru mengaum. i've always got a thing for vintage stuff since i can't remember when. maybe since the first time i had my mom's blouse on. or that day in the early 90's when i dreamt of wearing her red heels when i grow up. aah, malangnya saiz kaki aku telah melepasi saiz kasutnya. oh well. i'll have this red mustang instead. anyone?
Austin A40 Farina MkI
yang si biru comel ini, aku akan pandu around town when it's raining (pasal malas nak pegang payung duduk dalam sidecar). thanks to kurang-waras, i found my car. yang perlu aku miliki pasal kami ada suatu ikatan yang cun. kira ini kereta aku juga. lagu yang sesuai berkumandang sewaktu memandu kereta yang ini, pada pendapat aku, lagu dari the brian setzer orchestra. comel.
if i'm a rich bitch by the end of next year...
Austin A40 Farina MkIyang si biru comel ini, aku akan pandu around town when it's raining (pasal malas nak pegang payung duduk dalam sidecar). thanks to kurang-waras, i found my car. yang perlu aku miliki pasal kami ada suatu ikatan yang cun. kira ini kereta aku juga. lagu yang sesuai berkumandang sewaktu memandu kereta yang ini, pada pendapat aku, lagu dari the brian setzer orchestra. comel.
if i'm a rich bitch by the end of next year...
Selasa, April 15
business hidup
aah...
kadang-kadang hidup ini macam melintas track litar F1 di sepang sewaktu mereka sedang berlumba. kau tahu the chances of you getting hit at least by a car is very high, tapi kau masih teruskan langkah kau to get to the other side. sebab dalam masa yang sama, kau fikir yang para pemandu kelas dunia itu adalah pemandu hebat, mungkin mereka pantas mengelak.
tapi sebenarnya, kau tak begitu penting pun pada mereka.
kau tahu di iraq sana ada peperangan yang sedang berlaku sejak berkurun lamanya. most of the war victims, dead or alive, are innocent people. tapi kau, yang tiada kena-mengena sangat, buat cool dan jalan di tengah-tengah jalanraya yang dikelilingi bangunan musnah ranap, sambil bersiul. and you know, silap haribulan, ada peluru yang datang menyambar nyawa kau. yang paling best, mungkin sebutir bom. tak kisahlah yang military atau yang dibuat sendiri. janji bom. pasal kau fikir yang mungkin salah satu pihak will shout at you to get out of the way or come and rescue you.
tapi mereka tak peduli sangat pun.
because dude, in the first place, you know that life is a risky business.
kadang-kadang hidup ini macam melintas track litar F1 di sepang sewaktu mereka sedang berlumba. kau tahu the chances of you getting hit at least by a car is very high, tapi kau masih teruskan langkah kau to get to the other side. sebab dalam masa yang sama, kau fikir yang para pemandu kelas dunia itu adalah pemandu hebat, mungkin mereka pantas mengelak.
tapi sebenarnya, kau tak begitu penting pun pada mereka.
kau tahu di iraq sana ada peperangan yang sedang berlaku sejak berkurun lamanya. most of the war victims, dead or alive, are innocent people. tapi kau, yang tiada kena-mengena sangat, buat cool dan jalan di tengah-tengah jalanraya yang dikelilingi bangunan musnah ranap, sambil bersiul. and you know, silap haribulan, ada peluru yang datang menyambar nyawa kau. yang paling best, mungkin sebutir bom. tak kisahlah yang military atau yang dibuat sendiri. janji bom. pasal kau fikir yang mungkin salah satu pihak will shout at you to get out of the way or come and rescue you.
tapi mereka tak peduli sangat pun.
because dude, in the first place, you know that life is a risky business.
F.A.A.Qs
which stands for Frequently Asked ANNOYING Questions. woi, zimmermann. kena tag pun considered annoying juga, tahu? tapi aku buat juga pasal aku malas lah nak putus-putus kawan ni. hehe.
1- "Hi. Mana (insert your ex's name here)?"
owh, c'mon people. you know that we're not together anymore. no need for awkward questions, okay?
2- "(insert your ex's name here) dengan siapa eh sekarang?"
dulu aku tahu lah. dah tentu sekarang aku MALAS nak ambil tahu. *soalan ini memang ketara soalan cari gaduh/bikin drama.
3- "So korang sekarang ni apa?"
sibuk uh tanya pasal status orang. please don't pressure me on my relationship, it's like you can't help rushing me into things, get married and get kids.
4- "Bila nak kahwin?"
it seems that this is like the FAVOURITE-frequently-asked-annoying-question. yang paling best kalau makcik-makcik saudara yang attack. kalau ada boyfriend, boleh lah jawab "insyaAllah". kalau yang baru broke-up with their long time boyfriend? mahu menangis anak buah makcik tu. sudah-sudah lah.
5- "Kau kerja apa eh kat sana?"
entah. pasal aku selalu saja rasa guilty answering this question with "graphic designer". jadi aku tak suka sangat dengan soalan yang ini.
okay. listed below are you people who have to list down your F.A.A.Qs:
n
A.K.A.B.
melayu minimalis
saharil
lucius maximus
adifitri
1- "Hi. Mana (insert your ex's name here)?"
owh, c'mon people. you know that we're not together anymore. no need for awkward questions, okay?
2- "(insert your ex's name here) dengan siapa eh sekarang?"
dulu aku tahu lah. dah tentu sekarang aku MALAS nak ambil tahu. *soalan ini memang ketara soalan cari gaduh/bikin drama.
3- "So korang sekarang ni apa?"
sibuk uh tanya pasal status orang. please don't pressure me on my relationship, it's like you can't help rushing me into things, get married and get kids.
4- "Bila nak kahwin?"
it seems that this is like the FAVOURITE-frequently-asked-annoying-question. yang paling best kalau makcik-makcik saudara yang attack. kalau ada boyfriend, boleh lah jawab "insyaAllah". kalau yang baru broke-up with their long time boyfriend? mahu menangis anak buah makcik tu. sudah-sudah lah.
5- "Kau kerja apa eh kat sana?"
entah. pasal aku selalu saja rasa guilty answering this question with "graphic designer". jadi aku tak suka sangat dengan soalan yang ini.
okay. listed below are you people who have to list down your F.A.A.Qs:
n
A.K.A.B.
melayu minimalis
saharil
lucius maximus
adifitri
Isnin, April 14
senandung konspirasi
di sudut usang itu
tinggi melangit
yang tiada langsung tarikannya
kelihatan seekor labah-labah
mengait tekun
satu konspirasi
tentang rahsia
yang hanya si pengait tahu
si labah-labah yang mencari mangsa
mengisi perut yang kosong
meniti hari-hari mendatang
meneruskan kehidupan
dan dalam kehidupannya yang tidak begitu penting
pada mata-mata kasar
dia punya rahsia
seperti manusia yang sibuk
melangkah lalu-lintas di kota
yang bersut hitam
sibuk membincangkan hal dunia
dan bila tiba malam
senantiasa rindu akan sesuatu
konspirasi peribadi yang bermain
di setiap penjuru kepala mereka
di sebalik perkataan-perkataan
yang aku eja satu-persatu dan ucap
ada satu konspirasi
yang aku senandungkan
sebelum terlena
dibuai mimpi
menggapai bintang di langit gelap
-fzk-
tinggi melangit
yang tiada langsung tarikannya
kelihatan seekor labah-labah
mengait tekun
satu konspirasi
tentang rahsia
yang hanya si pengait tahu
si labah-labah yang mencari mangsa
mengisi perut yang kosong
meniti hari-hari mendatang
meneruskan kehidupan
dan dalam kehidupannya yang tidak begitu penting
pada mata-mata kasar
dia punya rahsia
seperti manusia yang sibuk
melangkah lalu-lintas di kota
yang bersut hitam
sibuk membincangkan hal dunia
dan bila tiba malam
senantiasa rindu akan sesuatu
konspirasi peribadi yang bermain
di setiap penjuru kepala mereka
di sebalik perkataan-perkataan
yang aku eja satu-persatu dan ucap
ada satu konspirasi
yang aku senandungkan
sebelum terlena
dibuai mimpi
menggapai bintang di langit gelap
-fzk-
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