aku mahu jadi 21, umur yang legal untuk everything walaupun masih naive

an sms received:
"okay u coolest people! our game 'chopping+susun tin & galah panjang' is definitely on this sat at 9am! Yeah! -organizer keramaian bersuka-ria yg paling best -AL"

hujung minggu dihabiskan dengan muzik luar negara, mengelak bola tennis and a small cleavage galore. friday night, aku cuba berngobrol (is that how you say it?) tapi ternyata fail. jadi aku cuma berbicara in english pasal aku tidak mahu bunyi kekok, even in bahasa melayu. hidung si manager mocca, cantik. he's hot too. tapi sudah ada orang rumah ber-anak dua. pagi yang esoknya, abah pelik aku sudah bersiap awal pagi.
"where are you going?" he was wearing collared-shirt yang kadang-kadang aku pinjam kalau aku terlupa to bring along my own clothes to his house.
"nak pergi main baling selipar and galah panjang." aku sibuk mundar-mandir mengutip barang-barang untuk memberatkan beg lagi.
"ha? main galah panjang? apa ni main game budak-budak?" aku gelak. abah macam tidak percaya that his daughter yang pernah bersekolah di tengah durjana city, berumur dekat suku abad, mahu pergi main susun tin.
"exercise lah. a much fun way to do it." aku reply bersahaja.

baha.

i'm not sure whether he actually ate that or not. but yes, we did play the childhood game. and had fun. kau yang menonton estrella malam tadi, jangan terkejut that she joined us too. we tried playing rounders but decided susun tin and hitting people with tennis ball was better. selepas masing-masing pancit (of course, berlari sambil merokok) we sat together in that breezy field, munching on fried meehoon while playing with a lost kitten. it was a beautiful morning. so beautiful i didn't want it to end. ada discussion tentang a repetition. malang sekali i'm going for a wedding in the east coast this coming weekend. malamnya pula, aku kembali ke venue yang itu hari, yang ada banyak wayar berselerak, asap-asap menari-nari untuk band-band dari kota singa and a local act. tiramisu; gempak. misai persis freddie mercury kau mahal. jangan segan untuk datang lagi in your brilliant costumes. malam yang penuh scenes; pertembungan ex's, eye distractions dan lelaki-lelaki yang buat jantung aku berdebar. sunday started lazily, dengan aku sibuk texting people up for a much cheaper tickets for the evening's gig. pasal aku groupie yang hot (elle yang cakap, bukan aku sendiri) she got me three, the exact amount i needed. jenis crowd yang datang, aku sudah agak ever since i saw the flier. aku mengaku i was judgmental tapi aku tidak rasa guilty pasal memang betul pun apa yang aku telah agak. they were quite unfriendly. salute to the fridays untuk lagu retro fashion victim. sarcasm kau aku suka. owh. and your performance style too. the two MCs for the day, aku tidak berkenan sangat. sebenarnya aku memang tidak berapa gemar MCs yang bercakap banyak untuk gig mana-mana pun. the other local bands performing that night was good. i missed decma & the could have been. aku suka dangan nama yang itu tapi masih belum tahu whether i'm going to like the band personally or not. maybe next show, okay? robot asmara, lain kali main reggae. mesti tidak ada orang cakap band kau poyo. *chuckles. you know i'll always love you, elle. and the boys too. except for ajwad pasal saja je. mocca disambut macam rockstar. kudos for the cute show. they played most of their old songs and only two songs from the new album (or did i miss some other new songs, no?). aku suka juga attitude drummernya. waktu aku lihat rokok yang dikepit antara bibirnya, ada semacam aura being in a dark jazz club. itu yang aku dapat rasa. itu yang buat aku rasa dia seksi. you can't escape bad boys. haih. my weekends are getting better. so is my soul.

kau boleh genggam dan crashkan-nya dengan bare hands kau saja pasal age is just a number

aku suka stage yang berselerak, semak dengan wayar-wayar yang berkeliaran, bunyi-bunyi yang kau strum lantas keluar raging through the amps. cahaya malap yang bagi effect silhouette dengan asap-asap tembakau lalu-lalang buat aku tenggelam dalam vortex sound. familiar faces, komuniti lepak hujung minggu 10 tahun yang lalu giving out familiar nods. old time jokes. reminiscences. young and wasted. age is just a number. tapi age yang kerap ditambah, dan ditambah lagi, comes responsibilities. young; macam jauh nun di belakang sana. wasted; hilang terus dari kamus hidup. tapi aku tahu juga, kau semua tentu bersyukur dengan phrase yang satu ini.

once in a blue moon.

age is just a number. and the system, like rules, are made to be broken.

striking two events in a night

today, turned out to be a quiet Friday after the two events that happened last night.

this year, my company organized another social event for us: a bowling tournament. it was fun because 2/3 of the mother & sub company joined in which made the bowling place crowded with laughters & groans of not striking the pins. the registration table opened at 7pm & games started the next 30 minutes. i'm not good in bowling but just throwing the ball gives me a good feeling. if i'm involved in any sports, i'll just play for the fun of it. the first 2 throw, my ball went into the drain. hehe. but afterwards i got better & once managed to get all down but not a strike. only after the 2nd throw for the 2nd game, i had to rush off (& missed the delicious buffet dinner) to The Curve because i had to sing backup vocals for anne's band.

when i arrived at Laundry, i thought i was already late. but it turned out that the first band had only begun. i didn't pay much attention to them because i was quite nervous. i felt like there was something stuck down my throat. to my surprise, all of those people i invited came to give their support. it's been a long time since i've sang. & we only jammed once for last night's indie-pendent women gig. though i sang only 2 songs, but i'm always worried of not giving my best to the band. anne said they were supposed to provide the lyric stands (since both of us haven't memorized them yet until last night) but to no avail. it was fun being on stage & seeing familiar faces that came to support. despite some mismatched lyrics (haha) but it didn't matter that much because everyone was enjoying the show. i was very, very glad.

thank you for those of u who came to support our local indie-pendent women music scene. kudos!