we are our fortunate accidents

serendipity. yes, i love how the word sounds. a fortunate accident. something that’s not a surprise for a dreamer like me to hold on to. did you know of a movie of this title? starring kate beckinsale and john cusack, the whole story revolves around destiny, faith, fate and of course, serendipity. hmm…i’m already considering that for my daughter’s name. i received the movie from a friend two nights ago, in fact i received a couple of movies too but dragged of watching it. i chose enchanted (which i watched half-way because the cd got stuck), then moved to 27 dresses (cerita kahwin-kahwin), the last 6 episodes of gossip girls (season one) yang juga ada kena-mengena dengan perkahwinan, a korean movie called once upon a time in high school then after much hesitation, baru aku proceed with serendipity. the reason i dreaded watching the movie was because aku tidak mahu perasaan aku dipengaruhi. tapi seperti biasa, aku kecundang juga. but with restrictions. aku suka tengok cerita cinta yang memakan masa, contoh macam a lot like love: cerita cinta yang datang dan pergi dan akhirnya decided to stay forever. okay. i’m not sure if it’s forever or not pasal segala yang bermula biasanya ada ending, kan? tragic or dramatic, depends on the situation. there were a couple of scenes from the movie that caught me off-guard. salah satu, sewaktu both of them were searching information about the other person, the song playing at that time was st. germain’s rose rouge. salah satu lagu favourite dalam double cd paris lounge’s 1st edition. i think i got the cd like, 5 to 6 years back. and somebody that i were to meet in the future have heard of it too, in his favourite movie. ironically, i’ve watched this movie once, way back, but i’ve never realized the song before. the next scene which made me replaying it several times was this time when john cusack finally gave up on finding the mystery girl because the clues that his friend and him got led let them to a bridal shop (well, he was about to get married but insisted on finding this mystery girl). when he told his friend that he should just proceed with the wedding, the friend, who was so against on finding the girl in the first place, thought john cusack was absurd and shouted “that’s lucid!”. yeah, he practically screamed out my cat’s name. tersedak si montel yang degil itu sekejap. tersedak 2-3 kali juga pasal aku asyik replay the scene just to get it right. a word that i got so fond of (from my favourite term, lucid dream). aduh. aku rasa menyesal pula tengok movie tu. now i have things trying to make sense in my head. or somebody should slap me to get some senses in my ever questioning mind. memang ketara aku seorang dreamer yang tegar, tapi i don’t practice believing that well. pasal semuanya hanya sekadar mimpi saja. jadi selepas dua scene yang agak menggoyangkan itu, i said to myself: i need a third sign and that’s it. but then again, what it? pasal perlu ke aku get involve again. cukup lah kerosakan yang aku alami. okay. so i decided just for the fun of it.
and i did find it. the third thing: a high end brand and a feather-like fish. ikan yang aku bela sejak tahun lepas, dipengaruhi oleh sebuah movie korea, ili mare.

owh. nampaknya terbukti movies does a lot of things to me. it even decides on how i live my life. haha. sebenarnya terbukti yang aku ini, walaupun skeptical, terlalu senang untuk dipengaruhi.
sayang, you're a fortunate accident. an accident that will reduce the percentage of me tripping over in the future.

gorgon starring in unfaithful

Tag kali ini berkaitan dengan tag mari melukis binatang sebelom ini. Kali ini tugasan anda ialah melukis satu scene dari filem menggunakan watak dari lukisan anda tadi.

*Untuk tidak menghilangkan feel lukisan asal, anda semua tak boleh tukar cara melukis. Kalau tag sebelom ni pakai mouse, stay with mouse. Kalau pakai pensel, maintain juge. Yang penting same care n medium. TQ :D

Sila lampirkan juga link image lukisan anda di bawah sebagai panduan mereka di masa hadapan..

Radin - turtle Starwars
bAdd - gajah Godfather
angel - ayam Honey
cikanum - itek zombie
senandung k - unfaithful

so i doodled a tyrannosaurus and named him gorgon. this is the scene from the movie unfaithful i referred to:




and this is the doodled scene where i inserted gorgon as a character in the movie:


get it? gorgon? PUAS HATI???

so yeah, i don't know if everyone else got tagged. because if i were to tag the other people, they have to be tagged first by drawing the animals (started by ben donasco capulet)

tapi tag kali ini memang macam haram. syabas, badd!

i'd live in a movie

i've always thought that life is a movie itself. the world as the big stage, the things around (buildings, trees) as the backdrops, the living things as the actors. every each of us have their own story to act or to narrate about. so when i was asked:

"do you take this life as a movie?" i nodded.

then he continued telling me about a friend who directs short films who disagree to that. filem lain, hidup kita lain. and being me, who can't be knock even the slightest bit, i re-think about it. plus, i came across saharil's thoughts which add up to the new suggestion. "dalam realiti, tidak ada the end" conteng si saharil. lastnight i watched Amélie, directed by Jean-Pierre Jeunet, one of nata's favourite movies. now it's one of my favourite movies too. amélie grew up without any other siblings, with not much friends around her. she's quite a bizarre creature really, in my point of view. well, she's a dreamer and i happen to love dreamers (no point telling why). the movie went with amélie growing up, a waitress at a cafe in the city, live alone but finds the joy of making other sad people happy. okay. cerita cinta pun ada. scene yang hujung-hujung aku paling suka, how she met with the guy that she love, kissed the upper side of his lips, his neck then up on his eye. and also the scene where they rode on his scooter-bike. and the credits for the movie came up. dalam hati aku cakap "awal yang indah". so, the short-film director guy is kind of right. filem lain, hidup kita lain. you know? kadang-kadang bila aku menonton filem cinta yang best, aku selalu terfikir and wonder, what actually happens after the sweet ending of the movie. yes, they met the one they love. but what happens after that? maybe they only managed to be with each other for only a week. who knows. haha. yes. i am a hopeless romantic. maybe i am that kind of a person who would do unreasonable stuff if i were to be really brokenhearted. sama juga dangan filem yang berkisarkan tentang kehidupan. hmm...tak dapat nak letakkan contoh sebab filem-filem genre begitu bukan antara favourites. life is not as easy as the ones you watch on screen. real life perlu banyak main kotor juga. you get the idea right?

even if i still think that life is a movie itself, the other half of me sedang pegang tangan that short-film director.