nu shoes

tired of paintings on canvas shoes? i am. but not anymore! because NDEUR shoes are here to the rescue!! a colleague of mine gave me the link this morning & as i checked them out, my jaw dropped-it-like-it's-hot. ok. merepek. but you've got to love them ALL!!

i'm really excited about these nu' shoes!

george doodle harrison

when i was younger, i used to put on my dad's the beatles' record on the vinyl player. i remember the cover with a picture all four of them looking down from a balcony. the song that i kept repeating was 'she loves me' & 'and i love her'. colour your way here. (yes. i know i'm bad at colouring, but at least i tried. & you should too!)

all out weekend

last weekend was an all-out-nightlife, thursday & friday included. thursday night we were hanging around everyone's favourite laundrette. friday, despite the drizzle and fever, we managed to run & hide at the loft. saturday, had some lapsap fun at our hiding place again. & sunday, the grand finale, the white man-made cave in the city for music that are even louder than love. had to go all out this weekend so that i wouldn't have to show my face again for the next several weekends. i'm currently saving up for india & it's taj mahal. friday night wasn't really a ball because before & after, it was cold war between me & 'heart. & sneaking out from him the next night was alright for me. it's not like as if i was going out with an affair or anything like that. well, yeah, u can say 'an affair WITH the dancefloor'. it was anne, mr. 17 & i, with our eyes raging around the club for hotshots. & we love the hairstylist!! & elm, he was wearing a t-shirt that turned me on: led zeppelin. anne who was really excited about her pussy-nipple-like cherry, got gangster's tongue trying to stuck it in her throat. EUW!! ICK!! ahahaha.....

mistaken identity

last night, at the ever famous thurday night hangout place, a funny thing happened. as i was just heading my way to anne's table outside the bar, a cute & petite girl saw me & from her facial expression, she was VERY glad she did. i couldn't avoid her so i dove into her strange yet familiar warmth. if only there was a video-cam somewhere recording what was happening. i'm very sure she could see the fake expression that was hanging on my face. she was unfamiliar to me. & since that was the first time it happened to me, i didn't know how to react. the fact that i have this short term memory lost disease, didn't help much. & what more, she was hanging out with a couple of friends (make it 8-10) which made me refused to hang around more than a second. it was creepy. to have some unfamiliar faces smiling at you is something. but to hug you like as if you've known each other for years? that's another weird thing. i hate the feeling. & i'm still wondering who that girl was. what if it turned out that she got herself the wrong person too???

love fairytales

and so, feist sang..

one, two, three, four, five, six, nine & ten.
money can't buy you back the love you had then.

t-shirts to voice out your thoughts

here's a couple of t-shirt design that i've submitted at threadless which didn't get chosen. & owh! how forgetful of me, i kept forgetting to personally print 'em.

plastic mask

so you wanna know about what happened last friday night? do you? do you? it was a blast & i was crowned as the queen of the ball (because i got the answer for the scandinavian pop group who named themselves using the first letter in their names. guess who). i did wear the green sari but couldn't find a really glamorous peacock mask. the food was delicious; i was like the wolf ripping on the lambs. the prizes was nice, DVD players, MP3 players & a stereo set. my king was a darth vedder. haha. my colleagues came with all sorts of masks. anne had on a long white wig with a streak of black. i loved her mask. we had fun. too bad for those who thought it was troublesome to dress-up for only one night & missed it. 10:30pm, i rushed off to my last resort on a friday night, a 'trendy' club that sits smack in the middle of town. there have been rumors, about the club being over-rated & trendy & uncool anymore. but i'm still there because that's the only club with nice music, where you're allowed to wear just the wackiest thing ever & not be laughed at plus some familiar faces that i can smile to. so what if it's over-rated. aku tak peduli. kan? i don't really bother about what other unimportant people thinks. obviously they don't know me personally. i'm not really a party person, but that's the only club that can give me good vibes. & i saw elm. & again, he looked delicious. tee-hee.

2thousand8

my team managed to finish our 11,000 dumrath microsites project last wednesday, when the given deadline's tomorrow. fast huh? yes. we are the factory labour of tomorrow. that's how we feel right now. discrimination to the eyes. anyways, since we've finished, done with the ever so boring templates of microsites, i continued working on my personal 2008 calendar. i'm kind of excited about it. the plan is to give these calendars to my close, favourite people. since it's my first, i don't think i should be selling it because i don't think anyone's interested in buying it anyway. here's a sneak preview:


so all you favourite people out there, will be PUSHED to take this calendar with a smile & hang it on your walls!


update: i'm done with the calendar. i'll print it once i get back from the india trip. yeay!

still dreaming of that white wedding

"it'll be a white one. being a minimalist, i won't be wearing those draggy dresses. i'll have a minimal wedding by the beach. or in a garden. no songket-songket. just plain white kebaya with my favourite batik. & my groom will be wearing a white teluk belanga baju melayu. flowers for the occasion will be white orchids or lilies. & guess who'll be playing at my wedding? mocca!! all the way from bandung weih!! & if thay can't make it, white shoes & the couples' company will always be glad to fly over just to sing at my wedding. & then by night time we can joget lambak with force vomit!! yeay!!"

extracts from dreaming of a white wedding.

selingan lucu hari ini

later today at 6pm, anne & i are going to ikano so that i can get my dress with a matching mask.

(2:18 PM) nikolay tyutyunnik: eh anne
(2:18 PM) nikolay tyutyunnik: dah pukul 6 la
(2:18 PM) nikolay tyutyunnik: jom
(2:19 PM) anne: aku percaya ok
(2:19 PM) anne: aku terpikir
(2:19 PM) anne: eh..
(2:19 PM) anne: aku tadi tgh tunggu kopi
(2:19 PM) anne: mungkin aku dah minum aku lupe kot
(2:20 PM) nikolay tyutyunnik: aku dan kongkong sdg mentertawakan ko

-_- anne terlalu mudah percaya.

p/s: one morning i received a spam-mail about cheap viagras from a nikolay tyutyunnik. haha. what a funny name. i like.

reminiscence of despite

lewat malam tadi, aku bermimpi.

eight years ago, i had a close friend. that i fell in love with. despite what the friendship turned into, i kept all the sweetest memories of him close to my heart. at that time, the mirc chatting device was quite a hit. i couldn't recall how we first knew each other. i think through a friend of mine who had a huge crush on him. it was on their first blind date that i tagged along. ok. i was dragged along. done with chatting on mirc, we chatted on the phone instead. late night conversations. since my secondary school was situated right in the middle of the hip & happening part of Kuala Lumpur, it was easy for us to hang out for drinks at the forbidden mamak stalls. it was known to our circle of friends how close we were at that time. we had an on-off relationship where suddenly we would stop contacting each other & suddenly a call would appear out of the blue. i knew where i stood all the time. i remember fick was a sweet guy. & we all know how girls have a thing for sweet guys. apparently, everytime he went 'missing', i knew he was dating someone. i decided that i should just stop have feelings for him & stick to just friends. once, when he didn't cal me in a while, i found out that he got back together with his ex-girlfriend. i was kind of relieved because i thought this is it. this will stop me from having feelings towards him. right. i respected his relationship. i knew his girlfriend was curious about me. but fick, he wouldn't stop calling me. until one day, i think, they broke off because of...me. honestly, i didn't intend to interfere. when fick said his girlfriend was jealous of me, i was clueless. jealous of what? i totally raked my head for answers. though i was having a crush on him, i was the only one with the secret. nobody else. but it was back then, when i was naive about most of the important things in life. so, we got close again. parted and got close. it was after a year of befriending fick, that this one night, on the phone, he blurted out, "i love you". which of course left me speechless. what i felt that night tasted like a fruit punch, with everything mixed all together. it was awkward in the first place, but we managed to act all normal about it. & he continued blurting it out everytime we ended our phone conversation. i was skeptical. i didn't really reply it. "ok" was enough. haha. until one night when i think it was my turn to make a confession. "i love you & i don't want to lose you" was said in one breath and a peck on his cheek. "ha? apa awak cakap tadi? saya tak dengar la". laaa..tak dengar ke? but i ignored him. on second thought, maybe it was a mistake so i was glad that he didn't get it. the next night we had supper with a couple of friends in Bangsar. there was a couple of menus on our table & i remember there was this one steak with a funny name so i read it out loud. at the same time fick, who was sitting across the table, held a same copy of the menu. he too, as i saw it, was studying the menu. "ha? ape? steak i love you but i don't want to lose you?". -____- at that time, i felt like running right into the middle of the street, biar kena langgar kereta. fick have this typical sweetness a girl would expect from a guy. when i got mad at him, he'd say "eh. betul la orang cakap, perempuan nampak lebih manis bila dia marah". now tell me how am i supposed to not fall for that? there was this one night when we were driving around town, i was sitting next to him, another two of our friends at the back. the traffic light was red, & i was looking outside my window. it turned out we missed a green light. because the other two at the back was looking out from each other's side window too & fick? he was looking at me. cheesy, i know. sigh. i loved all the good moments we had together. once, on a phone conversation, the line got distracted & i joked "i'm losing you! i'm losing you". instead, he said "no. you'll never lose me" in a very calm manner. but it was in those days. somehow, after a long time i got tired of him always coming back to me when he's not dating anyone else. i got tired because while he's dating that someone, he didn't even give me call to say "hi". yes. i just wanted a "hi", nothing more. because i know, even if we get together, someday we'll broke off & lose each other. & if we stay friends, he'll get married one day, & it's just the same. i'll lose him.

fick, i got up this morning & i miss you.

you! get on my cloud. now.

i'm watching the rolling stones video. 'get off of my cloud', way back in the 60's.


gila. mick jagger buat hati aku geli-geli-berdebar-rakus.