3-fold utopian dream

lately aku macam banyak sangat rindu. kemas-kemas drawer pejabat jumpa printed pictures. obviously, pictures are those happy moment we managed to capture. kala tidak happy pun, buat-buat happy. well, bukannya aku mahu cakap currently i'm not happy cuma back then, responsibilities tidak banyak macam sekarang. tidak semak sangat.

mungkin aku agak tertekan sedikit with both of my girlfriends getting married. tidak ada kena-mengena sangat, tidak ada point pun nak bring this up. saja suka-suka since tidak sibuk di pejabat.

one of the things that i miss is posting entries on this blog. lately juga aku ada urge mahu delete this blog all the way. but then i started reading past entries. not bad. jadi in the end sayang mahu delete. i'm not that bright jadi bila aku buat sesuatu yang best, aku kena hargai habis-habisan pasal i don't know when that bright moment's gonna come again. kadang-kadang aku main tipu, copy entries yang aku suka and post it on Facebook. just a reminder yang sometimes i can write good shit. just good, tidak great pun.

owh look. i've typed a whole entry for today. yeay. tidak rindu lagi :)

hello mother leopard

the call tone stopped. at that far away end, a voice answered.

"hello..? are you heartbroken?"

a muffled reply.

"i'm sorry. is the damage big? i assume it's just a small crack, no? i'm sorry too i can't be the one to mend it though i wish i am the person to do so. but i just couldn't bring myself to it."

silence on the other end.

"but it will heal. i've been through this. took me a few hours, days, months, but i managed. besides, you've got that ego of yours. that will mend it alright."

click.