if a person is good to another, it doesn't mean that same person is good to another different person. and if a person is bad towards another person, doesn't mean that same person is bad to another different person too.
come on. even pembunuh pun ada kisah cintanya tersendiri. kalau kau ikut jalan yang berwarna hijau itu, tidak semestinya yang lain suka akan jalan yang sama. try and put yourself in other people's shoes. you'll find it easier to tolerate. trust me.
Jumaat, Mei 30
Isnin, Mei 26
another 8 facts. i should be rich by now
aksi bijak oleh ben donasco capulet sempena tiada kerja urgent di pejabat. tapi aku rasa macam pernah buat ini tag...
The Rules :
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged, and to read your blog.
#1
i've always wonder about other people's lives. like, maybe they lead a much fun, interesting and exciting life than mine. in the state that i am in, obviously i guess. i wonder what it feels like to be a teacher, a nurse, an engineer working on blue prints somewhere in japan, a housewife married to a rich guy or a dedicated fashion designer. pasal sekarang ini, setiap pagi, i have to drag my feet to the office. last night, i even thought of going back to petrosains and do those creative things and just mix around with different people everyday. kurang bosan sikit.
#2
kadang-kadang aku judgmental. it's bad, you know. tapi jarang-jarang saja aku judgmental. and usually if were to be judgmental, memang betul pun aku patut berperasaan sebegitu. tapi aku ulang lagi sekali ya, jarang-jarang saja aku judgmental. mungkin tindakan hormon.
#3
aku rasa aku selalu membuat keputusan playsafe. i'm paranoid of what may come in the future. langsung ini menunjukkan yang sebenarnya aku tidak mempunyai self-esteem yang tinggi. waktu final presentation di kolej, aku kena bang dengan lecturer yang tidak dikenali. aku keluar studio, i fucken cried, man. rasa macam loser. suatu perasaan yang agak tepat dengan situation, i guess. and also my current self.
#4
i always put myself in other people's shoes. always try my best to treat them just like how i want to be treated. in that way, i can be a nicer person. itu perspektif pemikiran aku lah. okay. aku jadi begini pasal aku macam dah penat dengan manusia-manusia sial yang kurang ajar yang buat-buat tak nampak dengan kewujudan aku lantas lupa mahu respect hak aku. but at least i've become a better person. kan?
#5
aku paling liat kalau mahu ke bank atau isi petrol kereta. dua perkara yang memang aku sangat, sangat malas untuk buat. aku pun tak tahu kenapa.
#6
there are too many things going on inside my head. a part of it are ideas. jumbled-up ideas which i don't know how to express it. so in the end, i forgot about them. aku rasa aku ada simptom hangat-hangat tahi ayam. atau mungkin dasar pemalas saja.
#7
aku bukan dari jenis spesis yang apa-aku-mahu-aku-akan-dapatkan. i'm whiny, you know. but at times i do remember to appreciate things. tapi tak cukup bagus kan kalau mahu hidup di kota durjana where everyone's practically running to just about everything?
#8
i think i've fallen in love. and i'm worried. aku takut pasal aku semacam confident yang dia ada ciri-ciri to break my heart. betul. biasanya dalam hal-hal sebegini, my instinct is right. like, always. i don't really want to think of this so far as that but i couldn't help myself. pasal salah satu perkara yang menghantui aku adalah to be unloved.
these lucky eight people listed below HAVE TO attend to this tag:
robot s.a.
fa alif ya zai
rockadiva
sarah who got weird stuff running around inside her head
kammu
andre
andrea fonseka
black jetta
if you don't do this, i think some unlucky stuff are gonna get ya! wooo!
The Rules :
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged, and to read your blog.
#1
i've always wonder about other people's lives. like, maybe they lead a much fun, interesting and exciting life than mine. in the state that i am in, obviously i guess. i wonder what it feels like to be a teacher, a nurse, an engineer working on blue prints somewhere in japan, a housewife married to a rich guy or a dedicated fashion designer. pasal sekarang ini, setiap pagi, i have to drag my feet to the office. last night, i even thought of going back to petrosains and do those creative things and just mix around with different people everyday. kurang bosan sikit.
#2
kadang-kadang aku judgmental. it's bad, you know. tapi jarang-jarang saja aku judgmental. and usually if were to be judgmental, memang betul pun aku patut berperasaan sebegitu. tapi aku ulang lagi sekali ya, jarang-jarang saja aku judgmental. mungkin tindakan hormon.
#3
aku rasa aku selalu membuat keputusan playsafe. i'm paranoid of what may come in the future. langsung ini menunjukkan yang sebenarnya aku tidak mempunyai self-esteem yang tinggi. waktu final presentation di kolej, aku kena bang dengan lecturer yang tidak dikenali. aku keluar studio, i fucken cried, man. rasa macam loser. suatu perasaan yang agak tepat dengan situation, i guess. and also my current self.
#4
i always put myself in other people's shoes. always try my best to treat them just like how i want to be treated. in that way, i can be a nicer person. itu perspektif pemikiran aku lah. okay. aku jadi begini pasal aku macam dah penat dengan manusia-manusia sial yang kurang ajar yang buat-buat tak nampak dengan kewujudan aku lantas lupa mahu respect hak aku. but at least i've become a better person. kan?
#5
aku paling liat kalau mahu ke bank atau isi petrol kereta. dua perkara yang memang aku sangat, sangat malas untuk buat. aku pun tak tahu kenapa.
#6
there are too many things going on inside my head. a part of it are ideas. jumbled-up ideas which i don't know how to express it. so in the end, i forgot about them. aku rasa aku ada simptom hangat-hangat tahi ayam. atau mungkin dasar pemalas saja.
#7
aku bukan dari jenis spesis yang apa-aku-mahu-aku-akan-dapatkan. i'm whiny, you know. but at times i do remember to appreciate things. tapi tak cukup bagus kan kalau mahu hidup di kota durjana where everyone's practically running to just about everything?
#8
i think i've fallen in love. and i'm worried. aku takut pasal aku semacam confident yang dia ada ciri-ciri to break my heart. betul. biasanya dalam hal-hal sebegini, my instinct is right. like, always. i don't really want to think of this so far as that but i couldn't help myself. pasal salah satu perkara yang menghantui aku adalah to be unloved.
these lucky eight people listed below HAVE TO attend to this tag:
robot s.a.
fa alif ya zai
rockadiva
sarah who got weird stuff running around inside her head
kammu
andre
andrea fonseka
black jetta
if you don't do this, i think some unlucky stuff are gonna get ya! wooo!
we are our fortunate accidents
serendipity. yes, i love how the word sounds. a fortunate accident. something that’s not a surprise for a dreamer like me to hold on to. did you know of a movie of this title? starring kate beckinsale and john cusack, the whole story revolves around destiny, faith, fate and of course, serendipity. hmm…i’m already considering that for my daughter’s name. i received the movie from a friend two nights ago, in fact i received a couple of movies too but dragged of watching it. i chose enchanted (which i watched half-way because the cd got stuck), then moved to 27 dresses (cerita kahwin-kahwin), the last 6 episodes of gossip girls (season one) yang juga ada kena-mengena dengan perkahwinan, a korean movie called once upon a time in high school then after much hesitation, baru aku proceed with serendipity. the reason i dreaded watching the movie was because aku tidak mahu perasaan aku dipengaruhi. tapi seperti biasa, aku kecundang juga. but with restrictions. aku suka tengok cerita cinta yang memakan masa, contoh macam a lot like love: cerita cinta yang datang dan pergi dan akhirnya decided to stay forever. okay. i’m not sure if it’s forever or not pasal segala yang bermula biasanya ada ending, kan? tragic or dramatic, depends on the situation. there were a couple of scenes from the movie that caught me off-guard. salah satu, sewaktu both of them were searching information about the other person, the song playing at that time was st. germain’s rose rouge. salah satu lagu favourite dalam double cd paris lounge’s 1st edition. i think i got the cd like, 5 to 6 years back. and somebody that i were to meet in the future have heard of it too, in his favourite movie. ironically, i’ve watched this movie once, way back, but i’ve never realized the song before. the next scene which made me replaying it several times was this time when john cusack finally gave up on finding the mystery girl because the clues that his friend and him got led let them to a bridal shop (well, he was about to get married but insisted on finding this mystery girl). when he told his friend that he should just proceed with the wedding, the friend, who was so against on finding the girl in the first place, thought john cusack was absurd and shouted “that’s lucid!”. yeah, he practically screamed out my cat’s name. tersedak si montel yang degil itu sekejap. tersedak 2-3 kali juga pasal aku asyik replay the scene just to get it right. a word that i got so fond of (from my favourite term, lucid dream). aduh. aku rasa menyesal pula tengok movie tu. now i have things trying to make sense in my head. or somebody should slap me to get some senses in my ever questioning mind. memang ketara aku seorang dreamer yang tegar, tapi i don’t practice believing that well. pasal semuanya hanya sekadar mimpi saja. jadi selepas dua scene yang agak menggoyangkan itu, i said to myself: i need a third sign and that’s it. but then again, what it? pasal perlu ke aku get involve again. cukup lah kerosakan yang aku alami. okay. so i decided just for the fun of it.
and i did find it. the third thing: a high end brand and a feather-like fish. ikan yang aku bela sejak tahun lepas, dipengaruhi oleh sebuah movie korea, ili mare.
owh. nampaknya terbukti movies does a lot of things to me. it even decides on how i live my life. haha. sebenarnya terbukti yang aku ini, walaupun skeptical, terlalu senang untuk dipengaruhi.
sayang, you're a fortunate accident. an accident that will reduce the percentage of me tripping over in the future.
and i did find it. the third thing: a high end brand and a feather-like fish. ikan yang aku bela sejak tahun lepas, dipengaruhi oleh sebuah movie korea, ili mare.
owh. nampaknya terbukti movies does a lot of things to me. it even decides on how i live my life. haha. sebenarnya terbukti yang aku ini, walaupun skeptical, terlalu senang untuk dipengaruhi.
sayang, you're a fortunate accident. an accident that will reduce the percentage of me tripping over in the future.
Jumaat, Mei 23
snap your fingers and the love will vanish
just like that.
back then, waktu aku selalu berkhayal, selalu juga aku fikirkan bahawa pasangan-pasangan mana yang bercinta, tidak mungkin akan hilang cintanya untuk satu sama lain dalam sekelip mata. lebih lagi yang sudah bercinta untuk sekian lamanya. but last night i had my dose of gossip girl (series 13-18) where my favourite couple broke up overnight. and the conversation i had with ex-heart yesterday, made me change my mind. for four years i've been dating a jerk. or he wasn't before but he is now. apa-apa pun, aku macam kecil hati dengan perangai yang ditunjuknya semalam. sampai hati dia melontarkan kata-kata begitu kepada aku. but maybe he became who he is now because of me. he does have a good side to him because then i wouldn't have fallen for him four years back. tidak mengapalah pasal semuanya pun sudah lepas. yes, it seems that i shouldn't be playing along in this game of hatred but it's kind of hard when we still see each other in the office.
jadi cinta itu memang boleh hilang dengan sekelip mata sahaja, sekaligus dengan perasaan belas kasihan. a saddening fact i just have to face. it seems that i'm not the one looking out for your faults anymore. but it's you, who asked me to think wisely, are doing it now. i'm asking you to just recall whatever happened in that four years we were together. the good, the bad, the ugly. dan jangan lupa tentang karma, ya. please.
back then, waktu aku selalu berkhayal, selalu juga aku fikirkan bahawa pasangan-pasangan mana yang bercinta, tidak mungkin akan hilang cintanya untuk satu sama lain dalam sekelip mata. lebih lagi yang sudah bercinta untuk sekian lamanya. but last night i had my dose of gossip girl (series 13-18) where my favourite couple broke up overnight. and the conversation i had with ex-heart yesterday, made me change my mind. for four years i've been dating a jerk. or he wasn't before but he is now. apa-apa pun, aku macam kecil hati dengan perangai yang ditunjuknya semalam. sampai hati dia melontarkan kata-kata begitu kepada aku. but maybe he became who he is now because of me. he does have a good side to him because then i wouldn't have fallen for him four years back. tidak mengapalah pasal semuanya pun sudah lepas. yes, it seems that i shouldn't be playing along in this game of hatred but it's kind of hard when we still see each other in the office.
jadi cinta itu memang boleh hilang dengan sekelip mata sahaja, sekaligus dengan perasaan belas kasihan. a saddening fact i just have to face. it seems that i'm not the one looking out for your faults anymore. but it's you, who asked me to think wisely, are doing it now. i'm asking you to just recall whatever happened in that four years we were together. the good, the bad, the ugly. dan jangan lupa tentang karma, ya. please.
Khamis, Mei 22
advice for sale?
taken from stylescout.blogspot.comcan i maybe rent a stall at the KLurbanscapes that'll be happening in june and sell advices? for only RM1.20 (advice + paper)
yes? better?
Selasa, Mei 20
pesanan ringkas
kepada kawan-kawan bekas kekasih, aku tak pernah kacau hidup kau semua. jadi tolong jangan kurang ajar dengan aku.
obviously, you don't know the whole story.
obviously, you don't know the whole story.
Jumaat, Mei 16
don't let the world bring you down. not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
apologies to those people i snapped at. pasal aku pun sudah jadi merepek.
tapi aku jadi merepek pasal dipengaruhi oleh orang-orang yang merepek. and last night i turned to incubus's 'make yourself' to boost up my self-esteem. as selfish as i can be, most of the time i think about other people's sensitiveness. i was pissed yesterday because some people they're just fucken ignorant about what other people feels. macam minta kena tendang di kepala untuk menyedarkan sesuatu yang logik. kau tahu lagu robot asmara 'hati besi'? nah. i dedicate that song to you people out there. siapa yang makan cili, dia lah yang terasa pedasnya.
last night's outing was fun. i hung out with positive minded friends. robot asmara was really good that they got themselves another gig offer. i'm so proud of them. kamu semua boleh terbang melintasi laut china selatan. just believe, okay?
we were supposed to go for an island getaway this weekend tapi kalau kawan kau yang seorang kaki party, yang seorang penyanyi pop dan yang seorang lagi masih seorang intern yang confuse tentang kariernya, terpaksalah kau berwajah begini: -_- dan akhirnya sebulat suara bersetuju dengan plan si kaki party untuk mendaki bukit curam for it's long lost party, theme park and cool breeze. and the next day i have to drive mak to seremban for a wedding. memang perlu aku pakai sut supergirl tau! i'm thinking about this style for the cool breeze up there:
but instead of the exact outfit above, i'm going to wear a grey blazer, white shirt, denim skirt cut-offs, black leggings and sneakers. since i couldn't find any high-cut sneakers (preferably those nike dunks), i'm gonna put on ben's white high-cut converse instead. macam tidak berapa berminat pasal nanti kaki aku nampak kecil. tsk. i need a pair of high-cut dunks. kalau aliph lagi cool. ada sesiapa mahu jual?
a note to the past, please just stay there. don't you dare come near me because i'm afraid i have to say this out:
aku semacam bahagia.
jangan kusutkan aku yang mudah kusut ini. jangan kejutkan aku di tengah malam buta untuk mengalami perasaan macam sial. jangan buat aku snap in front of innocent people lagi.
tapi aku jadi merepek pasal dipengaruhi oleh orang-orang yang merepek. and last night i turned to incubus's 'make yourself' to boost up my self-esteem. as selfish as i can be, most of the time i think about other people's sensitiveness. i was pissed yesterday because some people they're just fucken ignorant about what other people feels. macam minta kena tendang di kepala untuk menyedarkan sesuatu yang logik. kau tahu lagu robot asmara 'hati besi'? nah. i dedicate that song to you people out there. siapa yang makan cili, dia lah yang terasa pedasnya.
last night's outing was fun. i hung out with positive minded friends. robot asmara was really good that they got themselves another gig offer. i'm so proud of them. kamu semua boleh terbang melintasi laut china selatan. just believe, okay?
we were supposed to go for an island getaway this weekend tapi kalau kawan kau yang seorang kaki party, yang seorang penyanyi pop dan yang seorang lagi masih seorang intern yang confuse tentang kariernya, terpaksalah kau berwajah begini: -_- dan akhirnya sebulat suara bersetuju dengan plan si kaki party untuk mendaki bukit curam for it's long lost party, theme park and cool breeze. and the next day i have to drive mak to seremban for a wedding. memang perlu aku pakai sut supergirl tau! i'm thinking about this style for the cool breeze up there:
but instead of the exact outfit above, i'm going to wear a grey blazer, white shirt, denim skirt cut-offs, black leggings and sneakers. since i couldn't find any high-cut sneakers (preferably those nike dunks), i'm gonna put on ben's white high-cut converse instead. macam tidak berapa berminat pasal nanti kaki aku nampak kecil. tsk. i need a pair of high-cut dunks. kalau aliph lagi cool. ada sesiapa mahu jual?a note to the past, please just stay there. don't you dare come near me because i'm afraid i have to say this out:
aku semacam bahagia.
jangan kusutkan aku yang mudah kusut ini. jangan kejutkan aku di tengah malam buta untuk mengalami perasaan macam sial. jangan buat aku snap in front of innocent people lagi.
Khamis, Mei 15
sinaran harapan dalam bentuk seorang leng chai
the apartment i'm currently staying with my colleague is 20 minutes drive to work, 30 minutes drive to the durjana city. it's a nice place with a 24-hour macdonald's and a mall nearby. the only problem with the apartment is that there's no disposal room on each floors so you have to bring down your garbage to the big dump downstairs. it's really uncomfortable if there's some other tenants sharing you the lift on the trip to the dump. and the parking space given to each houses; one parking space per house and ours is 6 floors below our apartment which makes the trip from our house to the parking space then the trip out to the guardhouse takes approximately 10 minutes. previously when the other colleague was still a housemate, i had to park my car outside of the apartment. i didn't rent any empty space because i couldn't find any suitable placing (plus aku memang malas/pelupa mahu cari pun). terbukti ramai juga penghuni apartment yang cheapskate pasal parking di luar memang selalu penuh. and knowing me who loves wandering around and coming home late, aku selalu ada masalah untuk cari parking space and ended up parking at the roundabout nearby. but since the other tenant left, i now takeover her parking space. tapi sebenarnya bukan itu yang aku mahu ceritakan di sini. the people living in vista PP are mostly families. well, it is a nice place with the swimming pool, grocery store, gym and some other facilities. foreigners pun ada. yang perangai peghak pun ada juga. (e.g "hai, nak pergi mana tu?" "ada phone number?") ya lah, bukan nak kata aku ini cantik-mati, but i just don't like it. itu encounters waktu aku parking di luar and i had to walk past the burger stall, guardhouse, swimming pool to get to the lift. aku rasa aku phobia dengan orang-orang yang tidak dikenali. ada ke penyakit macam itu? anyway, bukan itu juga yang sebenarnya aku mahu ceritakan di entri ini. aku sebenarnya mahu bercerita tentang leng chai yang aku discover about a week ago. hehe. from the parking space to the lift, i have to walk either a floor below or above the parking space floor. aku macam pelik sebab parking floor is 4A (and there is a 4th floor, of course) so i had to either go to 1st or 2nd floor to get the lift up.
usually, if lavid's around, we'll go to the 1st floor because both of us are too lazy to even climb the stairs. tapi selalunya, kalau aku seorang, i'll go to the 2nd floor sebab perjalanannya turun-naik. konon exercise sikit. harrram. haha. okay, berbalik kepada leng chai tadi. so you can imagine the joy i felt when i was walking on the 2nd floor towards the lift, walked past someone who was getting out of the house then tagged behind me to the lift (i still didn't know the gender of the follower) and then walked in to the same lift as mine, was a leng chai! *mata bersinar dengan sinaran harapan. hahaha! at last i've found something interesting to look forward to everytime i come home now.
itu saja yang aku mahu cerita untuk hari ini.
owh. robot asmara will be performing with 3 other bands tonight at that laundry. come over and bring your dirty clothes along!
usually, if lavid's around, we'll go to the 1st floor because both of us are too lazy to even climb the stairs. tapi selalunya, kalau aku seorang, i'll go to the 2nd floor sebab perjalanannya turun-naik. konon exercise sikit. harrram. haha. okay, berbalik kepada leng chai tadi. so you can imagine the joy i felt when i was walking on the 2nd floor towards the lift, walked past someone who was getting out of the house then tagged behind me to the lift (i still didn't know the gender of the follower) and then walked in to the same lift as mine, was a leng chai! *mata bersinar dengan sinaran harapan. hahaha! at last i've found something interesting to look forward to everytime i come home now.itu saja yang aku mahu cerita untuk hari ini.
owh. robot asmara will be performing with 3 other bands tonight at that laundry. come over and bring your dirty clothes along!
Jumaat, Mei 9
the worst in me
you know, aku selalu sunyi. when i told elle that i don't know how to mingle around, she rolled her eyes. tapi hakikatnya memang betul. everyday, i make believe that i have the confidence of facing the days ahead but inside, the glass is not even half-full. most of the time, i wouldn't mind being alone. and another most of the time, aku jadi gila just being alone. things, craps kept playing in my head, provoking with my own emotions. lately, i felt invisible. dari dulu lagi, walaupun nampak macam i have a big circle of friends, i'm always the one left behind. though i'm loud, outgoing sometimes, but really people, you don't know what goes on behind this closed door.
the other night, john.j said that it'll be unfair for me to be with him. ada sedikit hampa dengan statement itu tapi it didn't really bother me. sebab dua, tiga hari kemudian, as i thought about what he said and the happenings around me, i decided that instead of unfair for me, it's actually unfair for him to be with me. currently, i'm not in a good state to jump to another relationship. pelbagai hutang yang belum selesai. last night, i realized i can't handle jealousy quite well. i hate jealousy because it could drive me mad, brings out the worst in me. dan tempiasnya sudah tentu akan terkena pada mereka yang berdekatan. yang buruk biar aku seorang tanggung. yang lain hanya perlu gembira, bukan susah hati kerana aku yang selfish ini. i don't want to burden those people i love. ya, pemikiran aku cetek macam ini. pemikiran aku bicara tentang kebahagiaan si teman, bukan gundah-gulana yang datangnya dari aku. buat apa mahu hidup semati dengan aku kalau susah yang perlu ditempuhi? that's why i left my previous relationship. at this moment i think i'll end up alone until i die because i'm no angel myself. i don't think i can bring pure happiness to my future partner/s.
minggu lepas, aku pathetic.
semalam, aku rasa john. j hot. gila.
hari ini, aku sunyi.
the other night, john.j said that it'll be unfair for me to be with him. ada sedikit hampa dengan statement itu tapi it didn't really bother me. sebab dua, tiga hari kemudian, as i thought about what he said and the happenings around me, i decided that instead of unfair for me, it's actually unfair for him to be with me. currently, i'm not in a good state to jump to another relationship. pelbagai hutang yang belum selesai. last night, i realized i can't handle jealousy quite well. i hate jealousy because it could drive me mad, brings out the worst in me. dan tempiasnya sudah tentu akan terkena pada mereka yang berdekatan. yang buruk biar aku seorang tanggung. yang lain hanya perlu gembira, bukan susah hati kerana aku yang selfish ini. i don't want to burden those people i love. ya, pemikiran aku cetek macam ini. pemikiran aku bicara tentang kebahagiaan si teman, bukan gundah-gulana yang datangnya dari aku. buat apa mahu hidup semati dengan aku kalau susah yang perlu ditempuhi? that's why i left my previous relationship. at this moment i think i'll end up alone until i die because i'm no angel myself. i don't think i can bring pure happiness to my future partner/s.
minggu lepas, aku pathetic.
semalam, aku rasa john. j hot. gila.
hari ini, aku sunyi.
gorgon starring in unfaithful
Tag kali ini berkaitan dengan tag mari melukis binatang sebelom ini. Kali ini tugasan anda ialah melukis satu scene dari filem menggunakan watak dari lukisan anda tadi.
*Untuk tidak menghilangkan feel lukisan asal, anda semua tak boleh tukar cara melukis. Kalau tag sebelom ni pakai mouse, stay with mouse. Kalau pakai pensel, maintain juge. Yang penting same care n medium. TQ :D
Sila lampirkan juga link image lukisan anda di bawah sebagai panduan mereka di masa hadapan..
Radin - turtle Starwars
bAdd - gajah Godfather
angel - ayam Honey
cikanum - itek zombie
senandung k - unfaithful
so i doodled a tyrannosaurus and named him gorgon. this is the scene from the movie unfaithful i referred to:
and this is the doodled scene where i inserted gorgon as a character in the movie:
get it? gorgon? PUAS HATI???
so yeah, i don't know if everyone else got tagged. because if i were to tag the other people, they have to be tagged first by drawing the animals (started by ben donasco capulet)
tapi tag kali ini memang macam haram. syabas, badd!
*Untuk tidak menghilangkan feel lukisan asal, anda semua tak boleh tukar cara melukis. Kalau tag sebelom ni pakai mouse, stay with mouse. Kalau pakai pensel, maintain juge. Yang penting same care n medium. TQ :D
Sila lampirkan juga link image lukisan anda di bawah sebagai panduan mereka di masa hadapan..
Radin - turtle Starwars
bAdd - gajah Godfather
angel - ayam Honey
cikanum - itek zombie
senandung k - unfaithful
so i doodled a tyrannosaurus and named him gorgon. this is the scene from the movie unfaithful i referred to:
and this is the doodled scene where i inserted gorgon as a character in the movie:
get it? gorgon? PUAS HATI???
so yeah, i don't know if everyone else got tagged. because if i were to tag the other people, they have to be tagged first by drawing the animals (started by ben donasco capulet)
tapi tag kali ini memang macam haram. syabas, badd!
Khamis, Mei 8
sevenaire
because yesterday was 7th may, i should do this today. aku tahu. tak ada kena-mengena. got tagged by mills.
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
• i'm kind of loud
• i like furry animals
• i own an exotic fish which i named 'Prada' (because when i bought the fish, it stated there 'devil blidder' so i thought of the movie 'the devil wears prada'. so there you go.)
• i dream too much
• very lazy
• i blog
• i can't live without my 2 girlfriends and my 2 teammates.
7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
• very high places
• lizards (i can never share a bathroom with a lizard)
• big fat rats
• out of cash
• ghost stories
• to be unloved
• people who can read the inner me
7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
• madonna ft. kanye west & pharrell - beat goes on
• malique ft. najwa - kau yang punya
• hearts revolution ft. cory kennedy - prism effect
• gang of four - guns before butter
• postal service - such great heights
• klaxons - not over yet
• sova - biarkan
7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
• tak suka
• sabar je laa
• ayam! (bila melatah)
• apparently
• currently
• kadang-kadang
• fuck
7 THINGS I TREASURE THE MOST:
• purse
• lampe
• car
• cigarette
• lighter
• handphone
• toilet
7 “FIRST TIME” THINGS I EVER DID (so far <-- yang ini aku tambah):
• bali 2006/2007 with friends. i've never traveled on a plane with friends before.
• petrosains 2003-2005. i've never liked science THAT much before. haha!
• battle of the bands (got into the final round) back in 2000
• flying fox in 1995.
• skipped school for the first time in 2000 and get caught. gila.
• kissed a guy in front of a crowd in 1999 (dan dibahan teruk selepas itu)
• accident: hit a motor-cyclist and he paid for the damage. haha!
ok. too bad i'm tagging these people:
foxy farah
scorchys
robot asmara
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
• i'm kind of loud
• i like furry animals
• i own an exotic fish which i named 'Prada' (because when i bought the fish, it stated there 'devil blidder' so i thought of the movie 'the devil wears prada'. so there you go.)
• i dream too much
• very lazy
• i blog
• i can't live without my 2 girlfriends and my 2 teammates.
7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
• very high places
• lizards (i can never share a bathroom with a lizard)
• big fat rats
• out of cash
• ghost stories
• to be unloved
• people who can read the inner me
7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
• madonna ft. kanye west & pharrell - beat goes on
• malique ft. najwa - kau yang punya
• hearts revolution ft. cory kennedy - prism effect
• gang of four - guns before butter
• postal service - such great heights
• klaxons - not over yet
• sova - biarkan
7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
• tak suka
• sabar je laa
• ayam! (bila melatah)
• apparently
• currently
• kadang-kadang
• fuck
7 THINGS I TREASURE THE MOST:
• purse
• lampe
• car
• cigarette
• lighter
• handphone
• toilet
7 “FIRST TIME” THINGS I EVER DID (so far <-- yang ini aku tambah):
• bali 2006/2007 with friends. i've never traveled on a plane with friends before.
• petrosains 2003-2005. i've never liked science THAT much before. haha!
• battle of the bands (got into the final round) back in 2000
• flying fox in 1995.
• skipped school for the first time in 2000 and get caught. gila.
• kissed a guy in front of a crowd in 1999 (dan dibahan teruk selepas itu)
• accident: hit a motor-cyclist and he paid for the damage. haha!
ok. too bad i'm tagging these people:
foxy farah
scorchys
robot asmara
Rabu, Mei 7
permainan ego tamat di sini
"you went out on a date and he kissed your hand?"
"you went on an island getaway and you slept with her?"
sebenarnya, kita sama sahaja. tiada beza. aku, kamu, tahu yang kita masih sedang bermain permainan ego ini. tidak perlu kamu tanya aku sama ada itu silap aku atau tidak. i'm glad that i'm getting better at handling heart-broken things like these. kamu pun sudah bahagia, kan? dan aku masih keseorangan di sini tanpa attention dari sesiapa. tertawalah. aku pergi meninggalkan, merosakkan apa yang kita sudah bina selama empat tahun (mungkin) kerana perasaan sayang dan cemburu yang aku tidak tahu bagaimana untuk mengawalnya. aku buat keputusan ikut perasaan supaya kamu tidak terseksa dengan sifat aku yang negatif. but if you think i left because of a third person, so be it. apa lagi yang perlu kita selesaikan? tiada apa.
aku, kamu, hanya perlu belajar dari kesilapan dan membaikinya. ya, mungkin di tengah malam nanti aku akan terjaga dengan keadaan yang sunyi menyucuk dan tiba-tiba menangis tanpa sebab yang relevan. tapi aku tahu kamu akan berdoa kepada tuhan supaya aku kuat. dan aku akan berusaha melupakan segalanya until everything is zero. it's better that way.
"you went on an island getaway and you slept with her?"
sebenarnya, kita sama sahaja. tiada beza. aku, kamu, tahu yang kita masih sedang bermain permainan ego ini. tidak perlu kamu tanya aku sama ada itu silap aku atau tidak. i'm glad that i'm getting better at handling heart-broken things like these. kamu pun sudah bahagia, kan? dan aku masih keseorangan di sini tanpa attention dari sesiapa. tertawalah. aku pergi meninggalkan, merosakkan apa yang kita sudah bina selama empat tahun (mungkin) kerana perasaan sayang dan cemburu yang aku tidak tahu bagaimana untuk mengawalnya. aku buat keputusan ikut perasaan supaya kamu tidak terseksa dengan sifat aku yang negatif. but if you think i left because of a third person, so be it. apa lagi yang perlu kita selesaikan? tiada apa.
aku, kamu, hanya perlu belajar dari kesilapan dan membaikinya. ya, mungkin di tengah malam nanti aku akan terjaga dengan keadaan yang sunyi menyucuk dan tiba-tiba menangis tanpa sebab yang relevan. tapi aku tahu kamu akan berdoa kepada tuhan supaya aku kuat. dan aku akan berusaha melupakan segalanya until everything is zero. it's better that way.
Selasa, Mei 6
ini gorgon kasi lawan sama dinosaur kotak kau
ben donasco capulet ingin memulakan fenomena tag-nya yang tersendiri. macam best so i'll do it. kalau tak nanti akan dibebel olehnya. and that's the last thing you want. trust me.
OK..Cara cara atau rule permainan ini adalah :
Anda diberikan beberapa jenis haiwan utk dilukis, tak kesah dgn apa cara(lukisan tangan atau perisian computer) anda untuk menghasilkan haiwan-haiwan pilihan anda terbabit. Pilih satu daripada senarai haiwan haiwan dibawah. Sesudah menyiapkan haiwan2 anda tersebut, sila tinggalkan link blog atau lukisan anda agar mereka yang selepas anda boleh melihat contoh2 atau hasil2 lukisan anda. Tag 1 atau seberapa ramai rakan yang anda mahu.
AMARAN!!! Jangan delete link link yang lain atau yg sebelum.
Terima kasih.
Senarai binatang:
- tyrannosaurus, kura-kura, itik, ayam, penguin, gajah, ular, naga.
jadi ini adalah versi tyrannosaurus aku. namanya gorgon. ngap-ngap-ngap.
LINK
DONOLOGY
senandungkonspirasi
di sini, dengan sukacitanya saya tag mereka ini:
andre
peej
nonoy
kammu
just draw using anything. windows paint, hand-drawn and scan, even collage! and don't forget to insert your link under mine. have fun!
OK..Cara cara atau rule permainan ini adalah :
Anda diberikan beberapa jenis haiwan utk dilukis, tak kesah dgn apa cara(lukisan tangan atau perisian computer) anda untuk menghasilkan haiwan-haiwan pilihan anda terbabit. Pilih satu daripada senarai haiwan haiwan dibawah. Sesudah menyiapkan haiwan2 anda tersebut, sila tinggalkan link blog atau lukisan anda agar mereka yang selepas anda boleh melihat contoh2 atau hasil2 lukisan anda. Tag 1 atau seberapa ramai rakan yang anda mahu.
AMARAN!!! Jangan delete link link yang lain atau yg sebelum.
Terima kasih.
Senarai binatang:
- tyrannosaurus, kura-kura, itik, ayam, penguin, gajah, ular, naga.
jadi ini adalah versi tyrannosaurus aku. namanya gorgon. ngap-ngap-ngap.LINK
DONOLOGY
senandungkonspirasi
di sini, dengan sukacitanya saya tag mereka ini:
andre
peej
nonoy
kammu
just draw using anything. windows paint, hand-drawn and scan, even collage! and don't forget to insert your link under mine. have fun!
conversation tentang perempuan
lelaki. light up a cigarette. come and have a conversation with me.
kenapa perlu bergundah-gulana kerana perempuan? kenapa kau perlu rasa yang perempuan itu perosak seseorang lelaki? mereka manusia. punya perasaan. kadang-kadang complicated macam kau juga. the real secret to tame a girl is just like A-B-C. kau cuma perlu turunkan satu batu-bata ego kau. dan perempuan yang buat jiwa kau berkocak itu akan melentokkan kepalanya di bahu kau, akan mahu untuk bersama kau selama mungkin yang perlu. all you have to say is sorry. tidak perlu berulang kali untuk menunjukkan yang kau betul-betul menyesal. once is enough because twice is annoying. thrice is like you're not really serious and sincere about it. lelaki tidak perlu melutut di depan perempuan untuk memujuk, hanya mungkin tunduk sedikit. bow a little bit and she'll grab the hand that you offer. kau perlu tunjuk pada dia yang walau apa pun yang terjadi, pangkuan dia yang kau akan cari bila kau kehilangan, usapan lembut tangannya yang kau tagihkan bilamasa semuanya tidak kena. tidak perlu laungkan pada dunia untuk membuktikan kejujuran kau. bisikan di telinganya sudah cukup memadai. kerana apabila kau berlaung, perempuan yang lain, yang tiada kena-mengena akan mula tertarik dan perempuan yang kau cinta, rohaninya akan mula bergoyah, risau. kemudian cemburu buta. dan saat itu kau akan menyesal. kau juga perlu tahu tentang politik. bukan yang dibicarakan di dewan rakyat parlimen. tapi tentang politik cinta. kau perlu bijak mengendalikan kuasa politik kau. ya, politik memang dasarnya kotor tapi untuk menang, kau perlu tahu selok-beloknya.
okay. you can light up another cigarette if you like.
lelaki, yang remeh pada mata kau adalah yang penting di mata dia. leceh, aku tahu itu yang kau sedang ucapkan dalam hati. hal peperangan dunia tidak begitu penting untuk kau masih menggenggam dia. kau cuma perlu mendalami hatinya, layan dia sepertimana kau sendiri mahu dilayan. mungkin dia bukan seperti perempuan yang lain tapi dia masih dipanggil perempuan. trust me, relationship miscommunication always start off from the littlest things. the ones you brushed away because you thought she wouldn't realize to even give a damn about it. jangan sampai tersilap langkah. pasal kemudian kau akan pening dibuatnya. tapi jika kau sudah pun tersadung, tidak mengapa. say sorry and admit what you did wrong. really. it's that easy.
lelaki, perempuan tidaklah sepayah yang kau sangkakan.
kenapa perlu bergundah-gulana kerana perempuan? kenapa kau perlu rasa yang perempuan itu perosak seseorang lelaki? mereka manusia. punya perasaan. kadang-kadang complicated macam kau juga. the real secret to tame a girl is just like A-B-C. kau cuma perlu turunkan satu batu-bata ego kau. dan perempuan yang buat jiwa kau berkocak itu akan melentokkan kepalanya di bahu kau, akan mahu untuk bersama kau selama mungkin yang perlu. all you have to say is sorry. tidak perlu berulang kali untuk menunjukkan yang kau betul-betul menyesal. once is enough because twice is annoying. thrice is like you're not really serious and sincere about it. lelaki tidak perlu melutut di depan perempuan untuk memujuk, hanya mungkin tunduk sedikit. bow a little bit and she'll grab the hand that you offer. kau perlu tunjuk pada dia yang walau apa pun yang terjadi, pangkuan dia yang kau akan cari bila kau kehilangan, usapan lembut tangannya yang kau tagihkan bilamasa semuanya tidak kena. tidak perlu laungkan pada dunia untuk membuktikan kejujuran kau. bisikan di telinganya sudah cukup memadai. kerana apabila kau berlaung, perempuan yang lain, yang tiada kena-mengena akan mula tertarik dan perempuan yang kau cinta, rohaninya akan mula bergoyah, risau. kemudian cemburu buta. dan saat itu kau akan menyesal. kau juga perlu tahu tentang politik. bukan yang dibicarakan di dewan rakyat parlimen. tapi tentang politik cinta. kau perlu bijak mengendalikan kuasa politik kau. ya, politik memang dasarnya kotor tapi untuk menang, kau perlu tahu selok-beloknya.
okay. you can light up another cigarette if you like.
lelaki, yang remeh pada mata kau adalah yang penting di mata dia. leceh, aku tahu itu yang kau sedang ucapkan dalam hati. hal peperangan dunia tidak begitu penting untuk kau masih menggenggam dia. kau cuma perlu mendalami hatinya, layan dia sepertimana kau sendiri mahu dilayan. mungkin dia bukan seperti perempuan yang lain tapi dia masih dipanggil perempuan. trust me, relationship miscommunication always start off from the littlest things. the ones you brushed away because you thought she wouldn't realize to even give a damn about it. jangan sampai tersilap langkah. pasal kemudian kau akan pening dibuatnya. tapi jika kau sudah pun tersadung, tidak mengapa. say sorry and admit what you did wrong. really. it's that easy.
lelaki, perempuan tidaklah sepayah yang kau sangkakan.
Isnin, Mei 5
di tengah pagi buta, si dewa mimpi datang meniup anasir-anasir dengki
i'm scared of falling asleep tonight. if only the morning sun would come early tomorrow so i'll be able to skip the miseries of night time.
bukankah ketara? ini sebenarnya hukuman pada mereka yang tidak setia pada-Nya.
bukankah ketara? ini sebenarnya hukuman pada mereka yang tidak setia pada-Nya.
second chances
for lunch today, pizzas were served in celebration of the boss's 60th birthday. tapi tiada gunanya pun makan banyak sebab akan terkeluar juga nanti. owh. sudah keluar pun. since last week, the purging and vomiting came back to haunt. dan aku paranoid untuk tidur. because every morning at 3am-4am, i'll wake up with everything rushing back to my head causing emotional breakdowns. weekend, i forced myself to stay awake until the break of dawn so that i'll be very tired, sleep and only wake up when the sun's come up. friday, aku macam hilang akal. mundar-mandir tanpa arah tujuan. mahu tidur and forget everything but was too paranoid waking up alone in the middle of the night and cry for something that i should have stopped long time ago. pictures are manipulatives but they tell 1001 stories. when i saw those pictures, rasa macam ada satu kuasa yang menikam dan menoreh aku dari belakang. i shouldn't have, should i? pasal aku tahu sebenarnya mulut saja yang bicara kuat tapi bukan hati dan rohani aku. maybe what i found out are the amended things. like how i said to him. what happened to us couldn't be amended anymore. instead we mend them with the next chapter, different beings. a real fresh start. aku fikir tentang yang lepas-lepas. aku terima bila karma bersuara, "nah. sekarang giliran kau pula. we both know that you've been waiting for this." the conversation with anne last night was refreshing. "he was your first real relationship. the first try selalunya ada silap. the second one, you can be better because now you know the route. and this time, if it goes wrong again, maybe there must be something wrong with you." of course, it takes two to tango.
Jumaat, Mei 2
need and want. which?
as i was walking back to my current workplace, after wiring anne from the bank, al texted me up, asking whether i'll be joining the two-day beach party next week with tiesto and ferry corsten. i replied that instead of partying there i'd rather go down to singapore, just for the fun of it. he invited me to go there tomorrow but i can't because it's john.j's birthday tomorrow :) and i'm still raking my brain on what i should give him. a couple of ideas all jumbled up inside my head and i can't seem to figure which one i should choose. he did asked for a pair of nike sb lastnight. but i'd rather give him something that he needs instead of something he wants. i'm no genie but i'd like to fulfill my favourite his wishes. maybe you should cross your fingers, john.j. what about a picnic? would you like to go for a birthday picnic plus a movie of my choice.? ha ha. selfish, i know. but i want his birthday to be celebrated with his fellow friends around him.
while everyone was out partying the night before (eve of labour's day), i was at home, sleeping the whole night when i was awaken by a phone call, searching for john.j. see, when somebody call you up searching for someone(not a stranger), means you're that close. two hours later, he called me up and asked "so it's already end of april. how are we?" i told him what he needs to know:
"i want you." but we can't really get what we want, right? damn to that someone who made it a well-known quote. we then decided to be normal because i didn't want to stress things up. not normal as in owh-we're-friends-so-act-like-it normal. because we're kind of used to touching each other (no. not that kind of touching) so why not just stick that way? we like each other, enjoy each other's company so i don't think putting boundaries will help the situation. boundaries will only stress things up. seriously. we'll just go where the wind blows. and if the wind blows hard, dengki to separate us, be it. not that i want it that way but we'll be strong. won't we, john.j?
happy birthday :)
while everyone was out partying the night before (eve of labour's day), i was at home, sleeping the whole night when i was awaken by a phone call, searching for john.j. see, when somebody call you up searching for someone(not a stranger), means you're that close. two hours later, he called me up and asked "so it's already end of april. how are we?" i told him what he needs to know:
"i want you." but we can't really get what we want, right? damn to that someone who made it a well-known quote. we then decided to be normal because i didn't want to stress things up. not normal as in owh-we're-friends-so-act-like-it normal. because we're kind of used to touching each other (no. not that kind of touching) so why not just stick that way? we like each other, enjoy each other's company so i don't think putting boundaries will help the situation. boundaries will only stress things up. seriously. we'll just go where the wind blows. and if the wind blows hard, dengki to separate us, be it. not that i want it that way but we'll be strong. won't we, john.j?
happy birthday :)
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