we are our fortunate accidents

serendipity. yes, i love how the word sounds. a fortunate accident. something that’s not a surprise for a dreamer like me to hold on to. did you know of a movie of this title? starring kate beckinsale and john cusack, the whole story revolves around destiny, faith, fate and of course, serendipity. hmm…i’m already considering that for my daughter’s name. i received the movie from a friend two nights ago, in fact i received a couple of movies too but dragged of watching it. i chose enchanted (which i watched half-way because the cd got stuck), then moved to 27 dresses (cerita kahwin-kahwin), the last 6 episodes of gossip girls (season one) yang juga ada kena-mengena dengan perkahwinan, a korean movie called once upon a time in high school then after much hesitation, baru aku proceed with serendipity. the reason i dreaded watching the movie was because aku tidak mahu perasaan aku dipengaruhi. tapi seperti biasa, aku kecundang juga. but with restrictions. aku suka tengok cerita cinta yang memakan masa, contoh macam a lot like love: cerita cinta yang datang dan pergi dan akhirnya decided to stay forever. okay. i’m not sure if it’s forever or not pasal segala yang bermula biasanya ada ending, kan? tragic or dramatic, depends on the situation. there were a couple of scenes from the movie that caught me off-guard. salah satu, sewaktu both of them were searching information about the other person, the song playing at that time was st. germain’s rose rouge. salah satu lagu favourite dalam double cd paris lounge’s 1st edition. i think i got the cd like, 5 to 6 years back. and somebody that i were to meet in the future have heard of it too, in his favourite movie. ironically, i’ve watched this movie once, way back, but i’ve never realized the song before. the next scene which made me replaying it several times was this time when john cusack finally gave up on finding the mystery girl because the clues that his friend and him got led let them to a bridal shop (well, he was about to get married but insisted on finding this mystery girl). when he told his friend that he should just proceed with the wedding, the friend, who was so against on finding the girl in the first place, thought john cusack was absurd and shouted “that’s lucid!”. yeah, he practically screamed out my cat’s name. tersedak si montel yang degil itu sekejap. tersedak 2-3 kali juga pasal aku asyik replay the scene just to get it right. a word that i got so fond of (from my favourite term, lucid dream). aduh. aku rasa menyesal pula tengok movie tu. now i have things trying to make sense in my head. or somebody should slap me to get some senses in my ever questioning mind. memang ketara aku seorang dreamer yang tegar, tapi i don’t practice believing that well. pasal semuanya hanya sekadar mimpi saja. jadi selepas dua scene yang agak menggoyangkan itu, i said to myself: i need a third sign and that’s it. but then again, what it? pasal perlu ke aku get involve again. cukup lah kerosakan yang aku alami. okay. so i decided just for the fun of it.
and i did find it. the third thing: a high end brand and a feather-like fish. ikan yang aku bela sejak tahun lepas, dipengaruhi oleh sebuah movie korea, ili mare.

owh. nampaknya terbukti movies does a lot of things to me. it even decides on how i live my life. haha. sebenarnya terbukti yang aku ini, walaupun skeptical, terlalu senang untuk dipengaruhi.
sayang, you're a fortunate accident. an accident that will reduce the percentage of me tripping over in the future.