bizarre love triangle

lebih kuranglah.

awal-awal, aku cakap (konon dengan penuh confident) yang aku rasa aku sudah ada quite an amount of expriences dalam hal perasaan. jadi hati macam jadi batu sikit. mungkin takut commitment. well, kau kata kau faham. dan kau juga yang boldly made a statement yang kau tidak pernah patah hati. aku pula, telan saja bulat-bulat statement kau itu. decided that it'll make things easier.

tapi sekarang bila kau berseloroh pasal konon tergila-gilakan aku dan sort of patah hati, apa cerita? next time, kalau bawah pengaruh alkohol, please don't text me up. serba salah, okay? serba salah.

dan bucu lagi satu, you're driving me crazy! plan aku hanya mahu cuba sekali, i seriously didn't see the current situation coming. aku jadikan kau my hiding place bila aku sudah mula freak out nampak awan dalam bentuk C-O-M-M-I-T-M-E-N-T berarak ke arah aku. sweet that you're trying to be nice and all (ketara nampak kau macam really trying) but do you like me because you know about my past? wait. in the first place, do you actually like me back?

apa benda semua ini, aku tidak mengerti. macam leceh, now i feel like getting out of the triangle. fair and square, kan? so sekarang memang aku tidak berhati perut ke?

fuck it. i should just enjoy the date tomorrow. torture kau habis-habis. while it lasts, huh?

look pretty young but i'm just back dated

itu hari, i told a friend, "i nak lelaki yang tak banyak cakap tapi passionate." he said, "susah tu." well, not that i already know that.

dulu, aku suka main kejar-kejar. i was attracted to less loud guys pasal konon layan misteri dia, layan perasaan curious aku. bila curious dan aku siasat parts yang kononnya misteri, i found faults. bukan statement bongkak tapi bila the other party bagi positive respond, i freaked out then blah senyap-senyap.

rupanya, hingga ke hari ini that same perangai masih linger inside of me. err...is that me being fussy/choosy?

some holy shit karma's gonna get me one of these days.

like an electric eel

pagi tadi aku cerita dengan Mili pasal mimpi aku malam tadi. ada scene di mana aku mahu mandi but the shower area berada di tengah-tengah kedai makan yang agak sarat dengan customers.

then, Mili said, "kan Mili dah cakap, you have the fetish of being naked in front of a crowd! dah banyak kali mimpi macam tu, kan???"

now i'm doubting myself.

siri mimpi: don't give up on the dream

mimpi ini aku ingat, tahun lepas. i was standing behind a big crowd in the middle of a field. it was a familiar place; KL PAC di Sentul. ada lagu blaring from some giant speakers. it was a really big crowd but somehow i got through it. ada juga muka-muka yang tidak puas hati tapi aku tolak tepi pasal sewaktu aku berlari ke depan, hati aku macam berdebar-debar. then, i got to the front of the stage. atas stage, ada Placebo. terus aku menangis and i shouted, "kenapa takde orang bagitau aku Placebo datang KL???!!!"

thanks Fat Boys kerana bakal merealisasikan mimpi aku. i'll figure out a way to get to Molko, get his hands and kiss it. I.DON'T.CARE.