silly little thing

tengah sibuk pasang bebola krismas, Elle tanya, "so you're going out with that budak TTDI tu ke?"

sedang sibuk pintal ranting pokok krismas, aku jawab, "i deleted his number."

Elle stopped adjusting the colourful shiny balls and looked at me.

"kau ni ada tekanan jiwa eh?"

my God. that sounded serious. freaked me out. seriously freaked me out a little.

anyway, kami jangka yang dia ada dua girlfriends, satu di Perak, satu di sini. jadi, better stay away. muka jambu supercomel macam dia, confirm mengundang bahaya kalau tidak hati-hati.

mungkin serendipity akan terjadi satu hari nanti. owh come on. what's a little hope gonna hurt? aah, maybe a 'little'.

love spit

sebenarnya cinta boleh kekal sampai bila-bila kalau kau pandai caranya to nurture it. love after breaking up, love after friendship, love after marriage, love after the zillionth breakup.

yes, i'm fickle like this. i don't believe in eternal love but i don't really like the idea of people bashing their belief in love.

owh look. i'm covered in my own spit.

over and over and over and over

but it's over now.

manifesto survival untuk perempuan

lelaki yang kau tergila-gilakan, yang konon you can see your future with him perlu ada dua bank; money and love.

money, obviously everyone needs them. jangan rasa bersalah dengan sikap materialistik pasal duit itu boleh bagi jaminan untuk masa depan kau. betul. cinta yang kekal hanya untuk Dia, our maker.

love, kalau dia tidak ada a bank full of money, at least dia perlu ada love untuk kau. affections so that you won't feel neglected. dan dari love dia boleh berusaha to try and stay with you selama mungkin. we women memang perlu attentions. berapa banyak pun umur kau, ego tinggi langit mana pun, we were made this way.

so yeah, if he doesn't have the money, he better have a lotta love for yah. appreciate your existence so you can encourage and nurture him to be a better person. lelaki memang perlu jadi lebih better dari kau. bukanlah mahu samakan dengan binatang but contohilah mereka pasal yang betina hanya mahu yang terbaik to get the best genes for their cubs. the males siap berlawan to win the female's heart. or berlawan mana satu yang lebih cantik, menarik perhatian si betina.

well, kita sebenarnya tidak jauh beza dari animals pun. kita adalah spesies yang paling rakus, no?

here fishy, fishy

i didn't get ayam goreng at all last weekend. how frustrating.

but i scored. anak ikan comel. sayang, cuma tidak boleh bawa pulang. bukan tidak boleh tapi tidak dibenarkan.

"owh. meliar ye kau? haha. okay?"

"okay je. goreng pun sodap."

entri ini pula adalah to the beats of Pacific!'s Runaway To Elsewhere (Breakbot Remix)

he said my life is full of colours. correction: the colours are in my head. dalam kepala aku ada this neon city, yang macam Las Vegas or Tokyo tapi penghuninya adalah dikalangan Jar Jar Binks, C3PO, Bender and the likes. once in a blue moon, hari akan jadi siang dan everybody will go to the beach, skinny dipping in the clear blue water.

my life on the other hand, mundane. aku pergi kerja hari Isnin and can’t wait for Friday to come (itu pun kalau aku tidak perlu bekerja on the weekend). weekend..hmm..weekend aku tidak ada yang tetap. kadang-kadang akan terlepas dengan begitu sahaja. depends on my friends where they’re heading because i am not that head-of-the-pack type.

ini life mundane orang yang tiada passion tapi sepenuhnya pouring her passion into love yang always, always, mengecewakan. sigh.

but what the hell, it’s Friday today and i should go out and makan ayam goreng till the break of dawn.

tajuk entri ini adalah Daft Punk's Make Love

get it? bukan tajuk lagu itu tapi lagunya. score-nya. tidak ada lirik tapi beat-nya sesuai. lagu make love untuk aku adalah lagu-lagu Franz Ferdinand dan Placebo.

i think i'm the easiest to please. Elle and Anne said so. well, comparing to them i am way easier. but i don't know if easier to please means easy to get too. as in easy to get and easy to understand. in my case, i'm obviously sort of complicated to understand. or maybe i am easy to understand cuma yang lain insisted yang aku ini susah untuk difahami. hah. how's that?

pasal aku selalu rasa aku sudah habis think the matter over, fikir masak-masak dan outcome-nya adalah keputusan yang paling logik. hmm..macam ayat self-centered but this time i’m sure it’s right, how i decide on things. how i’m confident enough? i confide people with different types of perspectives jadi bila conclusion-nya led to one, that’s the answer.

atau aku putar belit kesimpulan yang lain untuk agree with me?

some people take it pretty well some take it all out on themselves

you could've buy a car. or get a house instead. or get a ring and force me to say 'i do' to you. and then we'll go away for the most unforgettable honey moon.

wait. maybe better belanja me to a slimming session.

you know, the best thing you could've done is maybe get me a bouquet of flowers and win my heart with your typical sorry cookies. yes, must be love. must be i just need that attention.

aku sudah freaked out dan kini menyorok. the cabin in the mountains is in my head. fictions generator aku sudah mula start engine.