kalau hip hop kenapa berdalih?

dulu, ada satu masa, aku macam gila too phat. aku cuba recall the real reason of the sudden angin but my memory kan very dusty so i'm still clueless until this very minute. waktu itu, seingat aku they just launched the album, the one with a track called jezebelle. kau tahu, hari sabtu itu we had a gig di atas pejabat post. gig di mana line-up nya adalah band-band ska, ska punk (aku pun sudah lupa macam mana kami boleh berada di antara line-up band untuk itu hari) and para hadirin adalah abang-abang dan adik-adik berseluar ketat dan ber-but. crowd yang kami suka, of course. sambil menunggu giliran kami untuk naik stage yang berukuran 15cm, kau tahu aku ke mana? runner ke tower records to catch a glimpse of the hip hop duo. ha ha. aku lupa aku paksa siapa untuk snap a picture of me with too phat performing behind me. the outcome of the picture sangat kelakar. like, so me. and once, when we were in a car and i saw joe having a drink with his friends at a mamak stall, kau tahu aku buat apa? aku jadi excited. dan bila aku jadi excited, remote controller aku vanish. aku roll down the car window, i screamed "i love you, joe!". ha ha ha. i'm even having goosebumps while typing this. kepada pembaca yang might know joe personally, jangan mengada mahu beritahu dia tentang entry yang ini kalau mahu hidup lama. waktu awal-awal when i decided to go crazy on them, i thought to myself that i had to choose at least one of them to drool on. i couldn't really set my mind because aha! now i remember why i was into too phat, it was their songs. bukan sebab malique or joe but it was their talents that got me hooked. how they managed to rhyme good words. aku rasa aku cuma terima too phat saja as our local hip hop group. aku belum pernah bagi peluang pada ahli fiqir atau group yang lain. but i do think that cat fabouloso writes good music. ha ha. yang ini aku jujur okay, anne. bukan just because. since 10am today, until now, i've been repeating songs from malique's double cd. mantera beradu featuring m. nasir got me hooked. i like how his voice goes with the song, sangat mistik. aku excited, jadi aku beri colleagues aku check out the song. i got good feedbacks tapi yang seorang ini, komen dia buat aku emo. ha ha. he questioned kenapa malique macam poyo preach-rapping, yang hardcore rap tak ada ke? habis itu kau mahu ke kokokaina menyanyi nasyid? bukan bulu dia pun, kan? ha ha. he said something about malique not being original (kau yang punya was originally sang by the roots featuring erykah badu). eleh. nobody is really original pun nowadays. so i questioned him back: why is it okay with international artists to cover old songs? why is it okay for them to sound like other bands but it's not okay for our local bands? he replied with they did it with style. well, i think ada antara pemuzik local mainstream mahupun independent yang did it with style too. ugh. sebenarnya aku naik jelak dengan lagu madonna - 4 minutes and mariah's touch my body. aku rasa lagu mereka masuk chart pun pasal just because. or maybe because mariah ada big jiggly-wiggly boobs. ke bukan bulu aku, mungkin? so i told my colleague that his band prolly sounds like some other bands too. see? nobody's original. innovative maybe. siapalah kita kalau mahu dibandingkan dengan mereka yang sudah berkecimpung dalam industri muzik sejak azali lagi. and about m. nasir criticizing urban music, mungkin waktu itu dia masih belum matang. kira baguslah waktu itu dia menegakkan apa yang dia percaya. but people actually do change, kan? macam aku, benci skateboarders, tapi the first guy that i had a serious crush on was a skateboarder and my first serious relationship was with a skateboarder. tapi in the end aku stick juga dengan perasaan aku. kebencian. entah. aku macam tidak dapat elak dari being judgmental like that. no offense but i've got some personal experiences. aah. tak mahu lari topik lah.

anyway, you guys should give malique's ok album a chance. owh yeah. that colleague of mine, when he listened to both cds, actually likes most of the songs.

like wo-ow-ow

disko jumaat malam had to be canceled and i was found sleeping in the favourite maxi with a fever. tiba-tiba saja. saturday was spent nude around the house while rearranging the bedroom's furnitures' position. berseorangan di rumah, aku boleh buat apa saja. termasuk buat kerja half-way and left quite a mess in the living room. sorry lavid. but i was already late for a depressed friend waiting in durjana city and also that party. it was a well-spent saturday night despite my head aching by the second set. owh. must be because our table was exactly in front of the amps and kadang-kadang dentuman bass yang macam mahu keluarkan jantung. but at the end of the night, i had my face in the palms of al's hands.
"why are you looking down?" aku cerita yang aku cemburu.
"kenapa kena selalu dia???" oops. al macam marah dan kemudian dia kata yang dia mahu aku happy. that i should spend more time with him and the others. aku sengih. gotta fake it, innit? hari yang esoknya, aku nampak dia depan mata, aku nampak sesuatu yang sudah biasa tapi malangnya aku nampak situasi itu; macam mimpi and that person, she looked nothing like me. part yang itu, rasa asing, bukan biasa lagi. and it was raining, supplying the best prop for the scene. kena dengan mood. jadi aku cari teman bicara. it's been a while since i met tashe, so i steered my way to bijou bazaar.
"do you still have feelings for him?" i asked about her past while flipping through the second-hand tops. tashe nodded.
"you?" erm...
"i guess ye la kot since you're jealous, right?" tashe was holding the two white tops she was contemplating on buying. i shrugged.
"i guess so."
it was good having that session with her. by evening, i was more excited on putting the cd i just bought on the car's player rather than thinking pathetically on what i wanted in the first place. satu quote yang aku simpan elok-elok in my mind, putting it nicely next to 'the least you can do is wash the dishes', adalah ayat yang keluar dari mulut tashe: you can never win everything. i want an affectionate partner, who won't have problems with PDAs and i need someone who i can converse with. aku akan tunggu satu hari itu datang dan lihat mana satu yang aku dapat genggam. you know, i hate her, that crop-top bitch tapi bersyukur aku kerana aku masih punya hati. somehow aku tidak langsung menyumpah their relationship pasal in the first place, siapa cari pasal dulu? siapa yang tidak tahan menjadi bodoh untuk kali yang ke berapa pun aku sudah lupa? siapa yang tidak mahu jadi sakit jiwa memikirkan benda yang sama berulang kali? life is fair pun. kalau yang sedang terjadi itu salah, karma akan datang. esok ke, minggu depan ke, lima tahun lagi ke, we don't know. aku percaya karma. mungkin my good karma will come smiling at me nanti. come to think of it, the weekend wasn't that bad. after all, i had john. j as dessert.

by the way, i dropped roti's cd and bought malique's instead. okay is good lah, for now.

jangan kau bimbang sayang, di mana ku berada, dengan siapa ku bersama, jangan bimbang ku tetap kau yang punya

ku juga bimbang sayang, di mana kau berada, dengan siapa kau bersama.

jangan lupa kau tetap ku yang punya.