Isnin, Mei 18

because i'm an asshole too

or assholes are for bitchy-males, so i guess i'm a bitch?

hey, listen.

do you remember that time when you said that he told you the reason why he left me broken some years ago was because i didn't give him enough attention? konon macam kurang kasih sayang. so it was, to you, i was the one to be blame. this is what i still remember of that situation. he said, "i just don't feel like having a girlfriend at the moment." after two years and a few months, he used that excuse to leave me. but you didn't know that, do you? to you he's the rainbow after the rain.

a few times, when you were busy telling the whole world about your unconditional love for him, he was at my place. mungkinkah kerana dia tidak mendapat attention yang cukup dari kau?

i hate to break this up to you because i know you're so friggin' in love with him. but he's not all goody-goody like that. dia adalah jenis lelaki, yang kebanyakan perempuan akan snorts, cakap, "typical..." kemudian yawn.

and i think he's worse than before. jadi kau memang perlu kuatkan lagi rasa cinta kau, jadikan rasa cinta a shield untuk kau kuatkan diri kau. because i know you don't need another cheating, manipulative boyfriend like him. kalau kau rasa you solely deserve a guy like that (because that was how you stole the relationship), then kau memang kena pegang kuat pada trust. tolak tepi hunches and shits.