bukan workaholic, mungkin mabuk sedikit

aku sudah tua ke? i find slumber waaayyy better than dancing in a dark smoky place where everyone else is either underage or fake. which at certain seconds, includes me too. or maybe aku sudah gila ke? pasal everytime i close my eyes, i see him. in a situation where it already happened or something that i've created in my head. and the thing is, whenever i opened my eyes, i see him too. dan aku sudah gila ke, having this urge of begging for the video of the past to be played again on the projector di mana akhir filem itu aku tahu kesudahannya. yang of course, buat aku jatuh melutut. tapi yang nyata, semalam mak ingat aku mabuk:

waktu yang tertera on my samsung's super small screen was 8.30. my mind sped up to the project i'm currently handling and its dateline. shit! aku buka pintu bedroom dengan kelam-kabut and saw mak brushing her teeth. quickly grabbing my towel i reminded mak to hurry up so i can get a quick shower.
"dah lambat dah ni!" she turned to face me.
"kau nak pergi mana?" she had a weird expression on her face.
"kerja lah." aku pusing membelakangkan mak, wanted to get my clothes off.
"kerja kat mana?" mak masih ada that weird expression. and suddenly aku fikir, eh, hari ini cuti umum ke?
"tempat biasa lah!" aku macam sedikit frustrated dengan soalan mak yang pelik.
"kau kerja hari ahad ke?" suara mak mulai lantang. eh?
Ha Ha Ha!
"apo kau mabuk ko?!" kan dah sebijik kena loghat mother tounge dia.

i was even about to text my colleagues informing them of me coming in late. ha'ah. responsible kan aku? pelik. mahu kata aku workaholic, tidak juga. entah apa angin yang sampuk aku pagi ahad semalam.