good state of mind

rambut neon yang ditiup angin.

walaupun aku bangun lewat untuk kali ketiga minggu ini, nearly broke pasal kena rip off oleh superstar DJ who often spins in europe but still refused to pay the bills, i'm in good state of mind today. i'm thinking of bang-mi-dudesweet party tonight but that means filling up for petrol which takes us back to the root of the problem: no money, no party, ley. i've done some thinking (well, i should've done it waaayyy back) so i've decided to stop whining. ha ha. meaning to stop blogging (if you haven't realized it yet, most of the entries on senandung konspirasi are whines). because happy thoughts jarang-jarang drives my writing mood. macam mana, eh? i'm slowly recovering, from my emotional distractions and whatever problems that weren't there but i made believe it were there. pathetic, tidak perlu lagi kau ingatkan aku. thank you very much. currently, i'm craving for conversations. aku semacam mahu tahu tentang sesuatu through conversations. life experiences. aku mahu tahu apa yang orang lain belajar dari kehidupan seharian mereka. like, there's this new cafe in town actually sells holy water and ecstasy for dessert. contoh lah. aku semacam tired of the same faces. okay. aku pasti mereka pun sudah bosan dengan muka aku but what the hell lah, kan? durjana city kan kecil. kita semua tidak boleh lari. tsk. (ha ha. did i just whined?)