aku baca latest post sarah. dan seperti biasa, aku terasa.
tapi, tell me, how the hell do i move on bila lelaki-lelaki yang i've set my eyes on are already taken? mahu bertunanglah, sudah bertunanglah, sudah berkahwinlah. ada seorang yang not yet taken (or maybe he's taken cuma dia sangat pandai keep things from me) aku tidak faham how his brain works so i can't read him which depresses me jadi i might as well give up on that.
ada seorang ex-schoolmate aku pernah cakap pada aku that she remembered this one time at class, i was doodling on the desk and came across somebody's doodle that read 'if u love somebody, just go for it!' and i told her that i should live by that. waktu kawan aku reminisced that memory, aku tergelak besar. i totally forgot about that doodle. but being at this age, that couldn't work. wouldn't work. waktu sekolah, bolehlah pakai tapi nowadays, mana boleh main-main. semua pun mahu komitmen, mahu kahwin. trend yang popular untuk ages 20-30. dan seperti biasa, aku tidak ikut trend sangat. macam fesyen juga, bila trend tights sudah lapuk, baru aku sibuk pakai. dan macam perasaan juga, tujuh bulan kemudian baru aku confront. kawan aku panggil aku celeron dan aku cakap, "what's that? sounds like sayur. celery."
okaylah. maybe i'm having one of those days where i feel needy and clingy and sangat-sangat whiny. aku rasa mungkin pasal one of my girlfriends, yang commited gila dengan relationship-nya, mungkin mahu bertunang. dan yang seorang lagi, yang kurang conservative sedang sibuk bercinta dengan Jetli. texting me lovey-dovey stuff yang sepatutnya dihantar to the guy she's currently dating.
*sigh
i'd like to feel that. pasal aku macam sudah lupalah perasaan in love macam mana.
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ayat last tu x bleh blah. ia perasaan yg sama ada pada aku, hehe
eh you, janganlah terasa. well i would like to believe that when u say terasa- means u can relate to it. well, u'll do fine, soon u'll meet the one, (or might met already?) cliche as it may sounds but what else to say? life is always shitty, but in a sweet way, hope may triumph over it. this is just a period. it will be over.positive babe!!
eh, but if it's terasa as in u felt hurt or offended, i'm so sorry ok, well u know the blog selalu tulis about relationship and it was not meant specifically for anybody. so happen u may be in the situation and some of my friends too. entahlah musim ke or memang spesies idaman yang tidak jerk semua sudah dikebas orang. and on relationship, which actually i memang suka tulis pun. things like that.
terasa as in ada persamaan, okay? bukan kecil hati.
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